2000 miles

Chaper 2

Chapter 2

After the whole FaceTime experience, I felt even closer to him. I could tell him anything and for the longest time, I thought that if I screwed anything up, I could just block him. I really don't want to not talk to him. I disobeyed my rule, not falling in love with a boy I have no chance with. We just talked all the time and there was no awkward pauses and I don't know, I liked it. I really enjoyed his virtual company. This boy may be the death of me. We face timed more than just that night though. We face timed a few nights later but only for a little while. I forgot his voice, I didn't like that. No, not at all. I had finally came to the conclusion that I actually like this boy. So I told him. It was hard to build up the courage, so I texted it to him, "Look, I really like you, but I don't know why and I love this, whatever this is. I love it. And if you don't feel the same, I hope it won't be awkward between us." He said that he loved me. But I don't think he meant what I wanted him to mean.

Why? Why me? Why him? What does this one boy have to live so far away? Why did his mama have to choose Massachusetts out of all the 50 states? Why could she have chosen something closer like next door? I know he lives thousands of miles away, but he's always the first thing on my mind. And I hate that. I love this, but I hate that. Why can't he just ask me out? I've been waiting forever. My birthday is coming up and somehow my friends found his kik. Great. They keep talking to him. He's starting to talk to them more than me. I'm kinda jealous. Why? Oh here comes the questions again. They keep trying to tell him to ask me on my birthday. That would be so sweet. But I don't know. He barely even texts me anymore.

Now he thinks I'm mad at him. Great. I didn't even do anything, I just texted him. Maybe someone told him. Ugh, why? Wow, I've known him for 2 months and I'm already jealous. I just wish he lived closer.