Who am i exactly!?

chapter 2

"We need you"

Hindi ko alam kung anong klasing reaksyon ang pwede kong maramdaman ngayon.I want to scream,I want to smash my phone to pieces sa pinaghalo halong emosyon na nasa sistema ko ngayon.

"I already quit" sinugurado kung malamig pa sa malamig ang tono ng boses ko,gusto Kong malaman niya na tapos na ako,that I would never come back to that place.

Nanahimik ang kabilang linya.Sana naman na gets nila ang ibig kong sabihin.I spent 5 years of my life with them,and those years nangulila ako sa pamilya ko,na sayang ang buhay ng kabataan ko.Alam ko malaki ang utang na loob ko sa lugar nayon,sa kanila.But I am damn sure I already paid everything with the works and years I spent with them.

When I told them I'm quitting, they accepted it like its nothing,and I was so thankful.And now they're telling me they want me back?! That's bullshit!!

"We know,and I'm sorry.The organization was attack, we lost more than half of our men and most of us are injured.We still don't know whose the fuck behind this and were still working on it.We need our former members back,we already called them especially you.I'm really sorry but we need our ace back."

Attack? I wouldn't be surprised.Alam ko namang mangyayari to,sa lahat ba naman na naging mga kalaban ng organisyon.Hindi lang simpling mga kalaban.Pero anong konekto nito sakin? As far as I know,once you quit,wala kanang kahit na anong koneksyon sa kanila,and that was fine with me.

I'm home and free,I finally gotten what I want.And now they want to take it away from me ng ganon lang?! Just because they were attacked it doesn't mean I would go back.I'm already where I want to be.

"What it is to me?I already cut the ties between me and that organization. Whatever happens there has nothing to do with me anymore." To be honest,kahit ayokong maramdaman, hindi ko maiwasang isipin ang mga taong naging kasa kasama ko ng nandon pa ko.I'm not close to anyone,not really.

But those people,we share the same life and death situation. I wonder,kung kasama ba sila sa mga nasawi.

"It has something to do with you"
Kumunot ang noo ko sa turan nito.

"What do you mean?" Nakaramdam ako ng kaba,I just don't know why.

"Unfortunately,we lost the data.The data were all of our men's life insformations,families,friends,love ones,and associates."

What? Is he telling me that they all know about my family? Panong Hindi ko alam to?

"Sinasabi mo bang,you guys gathered all the information about my family without my knowledge? Are you fucking kidding me?! My family has nothing to do with this!"

"Yes.We had to.Hindi kami nakakasigurado na tapat kayo sa organisasyon.Were just making sure,for the safety."

I wanted to laugh so much for their stupid reason.So,ginawa nila to para may tali kami sa kanila? Wow! Just wow!

"And now the enemy has it. Congratulations! You guys just made my family in danger!" Nangigil kung singhal,kulang nalang mayupi ang cellphone ko sa sobrang higpit na kapit ko dito.

"I don't think apology is enough.All the higher ups can do right now is to make sure your families safety.All we need to do is to wait for your decision.You know were to find us,goodbye ace." I was left dumfounded. My phone was still press on my ear,dahan dahan ko itong iniwas.

Now what?What the hell am I supposed to do? I can protect my family,but I can't be with them 24\7? Lalong lalo na ang kapatid ko na walang ginawa kundi lumabas ng lumabas.

Here I thought,that the life  I had before would be forgotten. Hindi ko akalaing babalik pa ito sakin.Para akong presong binigyan ng kaunting kalayan.I was supposed to continue my schooling,mukhang hindi na mangyayari yun.And what about them?Nagkatotoo ata ang sinabi ng kapatid ko.Iiwan ko nanaman sila na walang alam at paalam.