<Jihoon's p.o.v>
I've been in this industry for about 10 years now. Those 10 years wasn't hard, but they weren't easy either. Or at least that's what I thought until I joined produce 101.
I've always thought I wanted to be an actor. That was what I was good at and I liked acting. But I changed my mind when I discovered the path of an idol. All of it sounded so appealing to me. The things I could get from being an idol were undeniable. Also I highly enjoyed dancing and rapping. So I started training. I auditioned for many agencies. I went to SM, CUBE, FANTAGIO, and a lot of other agencies. But I got accepted into none of those agencies. I thought about giving up a couple of times. How was I going to be an idol when I didn't even have an agency to start with?
I kept auditioning for multiple agencies but I got rejected by every single one of them. I auditioned. I failed. I auditioned again. I failed again. This repeated for 3 years.
One day I heard that they were making another season of produce 101. I knew this show would be my last and only hope. I wanted to enter it so bad but I couldn't. I didn't have an agency so I couldn't enter it even though I wanted to.
(A/N Yes, I know you can enter Produce 101 without an agency in real life but lets just say you can't in this story.)
I kept auditioning in hopes of maybe getting accepted. But those hopes never turned into reality.
So I was left with only one choice now:
Getting a sponsor.
I was aware of the whole concept of being and getting a sponsor because of my experience with the industry in my early days. I never thought I would come to having a sponsor. I knew it was bad and I should never even think about doing it, but I had no choice.
So I went out, looking for a sponsor. It didn't take me that long to find one. The sponsor was a man in his 50s, also a ceo of an idol agency. He gave me a contract that basically said that he would let me in his agency and he would let me on the produce 101 season 2. And of course, I would have sexual affairs with him in return. I signed it.
"We have made a deal," the man said smiling.
"Welcome to my agency, Jihoon."
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It hurt.
It hurt so bad.
Both physically and mentally.
I felt like I was a whore.
I felt so wrong and dirty.
I felt like I was a prostitute and I felt like everyone knew that I was a prostitute.
I wanted to die.
But I knew I couldn't give up now since I was so close to my goal in life.
So I didn't stop and continued on the sponsor business.
-Continued in next chapter-
-I'm so sorry for the short length and the fact that I didn't upload for almost two weeks :(
-Next chapter will hopefully be longer and it will be longer :)
