Conflicting Tides

trying

I'm not lying.

I'm tired trying.

Doll my face up,

Just to be shot down.

I always have a frown.

Your the cause if my pain,

Stuck in vain.

I'm not lying,

I hate trying.

Your in fame, flying,

Flying through the air.

I can't help but stare.

Am I titanium?

I feel like tin,

But I'm not thin.

You always win.

Maybe I'll die,

But that's not the lie.

It's the way I try,

I try so hard,

But I feel like a lump.of lard.

An oompaloompa

Yeah, I know I have more weight,

I eat when I get hate.

An emotional eater,

Never gets to see her.

Mom, I wish I could meet you,

Figure out why I'm so ugly,

I'm not lying,

I.stopped.trying.

I.don't deserve to be a thug pug.

Maybe I.should die,

Let you think your lies.

But what about my family?

I'm no longer trying.

I.can never impress,

So why do I dress?