A Walk Among Wild Hearts

December 2017

Nostalgia

I looked at the place we used to whisper our goodbyes. We couldn't wait to see and be with each other the next day. I sat on my steps looking at yours; remembering the talk we had. The one that broke my heart and changed my perspective on you from that point on. I remembered walking in your doors and feeling at home as soon as I saw you. All my troubles and negative emotions would melt off at the door. The only ones I had were the ones I would get thinking of how close yet far apart we were. You couldn't see it. How could you? You wouldn't know the difference. The situation was tearing me apart. I don't know if it did the same to you. I, in all honesty, hope it did so I can at least know you understood the pain I still carried around every day. It was magnified by ten and it drug me through the fricken mud. There was a dagger stuck in my back, you gradually pushed its hilt ever deeper, until it shattered my heart more so than when you found it.

~M.B.

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Take a Stand

Each step I take, no matter how glorious or how painful, is one more step than before. Every step is a new position, a new time and place in my life. Today (Dec 4th, 2017) was hard, but what is the earth without the beauty of its multitude of storms? Today I made a stand for my heart and my future. Today I do not stand alone. Today, I realized my worth and what I must do. A broken heart may be the price. Whose? I'm not sure yet. I've been dragged in the mud and told to hold on. I've been lied to. I've fought. I've sacrificed. I've learned. I've grown. For my well being and for another's. I've learned to love without expecting anything in return, but without answers, I will only suffer through that love. No more "maybes". No more "I don't knows". Today I take a stand for my heart with a lion roaring in my soul.

~M.B.

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Man of God

I've been led on, lied to, put away in a corner of thought. I've been demoted. I've endured it all for the sake of something better. I've fought my demons. I've warded off attacks; all with God's help because I was committed to a goal. I've hurt feelings, found real friends, and prayed for guidance, clarification, and direction. It has all led me here. Today I conquer a challenge that will change my life one way or another. I am scared, anxious and unsure, but it must be done. If not me, then who will?

I am a warrior in my own right. I fight for freedom, purity, love, truth, compassion, honesty, and growth. I fight for a new generation of hurting, young souls, lost to society's malice and selfishness.

I fight for King and Kingdom!

I am a man of God!

~M.B

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Prayer for my Future Wife

I pray for my future wife.

Grow with every experience; good or bad. Get your heart broken so you are able to comprehend the pain. Let God take your hand. Seek your heavenly father before you seek me. I pray that you grow and mature so you can learn to help yourself and help others; all while bringing glory to the King. Seek to understand. Do not be afraid; go out and live. Reach for more. Be you. Be free. Be fearless.

~M.B.

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Clouds

Sitting in the café on main,

I'm watching the clouds glide.

To centre myself,

in my journal and in my father I confide.