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migliori amici ; part five

f i n a l l y a m i r i t e

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migliori amici - best friends 

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song - [ bellyache - billie eilish ]

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y/n's pov

"oh my," i hear millie whisper to sadie in the corner, jack wrapped his arms around me and i smiled, i turned to finn who had a sad look on his face. "what the fuck, are you guys actually watching it?" jack tried to block me from the tv, "stop, it's embarassing, 0h my goid." i giggled, the word embarassing repeated in my head.

flashback

"did she actually show up to school?" i heard kyden say from the corner of the classroom, he was talking to finn wolfhard, that stupid bitch. i had this urge to curse, to curse every second, every god damn minute. damn, i'm a badass fifth grader. "yeah, i showed up to school? you have a problem with that you short-ass," a few kids chuckled, but i still didn't have any friends because i blocked them all out of my life, trust no one ya know. "of course i have a problem, you lie about everything and you're such a whore," him and his friends laughed, laughed their small little hearts out. "watch your language and go out to recess," ms. elgore screamed. 

kyden and finn's new gang popped over to me, i rolled my eye, "finn, i get it, i'm not cool enough for you anymore, j-just leave me alone." he ran after me, we ended up under the play structure, all alone. "i told you i'm sorry, what else do i have to do?" i didn't want to tell him again. "finn, you broke me, you fucking broke me! there's no going back, kyden hates me and so does the rest of our grade... do yourself a favor and leave me the fuck alone, leave me alone, you'll never stick up for me so what's the point?!" i ran out, eventually meeting kyden and his girlfriend, mia, who was such an asswipe. "get her babe," i cringed at the ten year old fuck up, mia rushed over to me and began to grab my hair and kick me. that's the last memory of fifth grade that i have, except for sitting by myself and lunch and the occasional bullies picking on me.

end flashback

jack began to tap me continuously, "y/n, you okay?" he asked kindly, i cuddled up next to him, i felt so lucky to havewh him. we shared a cup of warm cocoa while watching the movie, finn occasionally stared at me and jack but turned back to noah who was whispering something to him, millie and sadie were behind me, fangirling over me and jack's relationship. "millie and sadie, sit next to me!" i patted the blanket we were sleeping on. 

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"over, part two, what the fuck is this shit? finn and jack, i give you two minutes to explain," i screamed angrily, they both laughed. "we can't tell you y/n, that's how it works, oh god, you didn't have your private meeting yet?" millie and finn said, i shook my head. "god damn, this acting stuff is complicated, oh my god!" i looked around the room, it was only me, finn, jack, millie, and noah awake. sadie slept on caleb's lap, while gaten slept next to noah.

"hey millie, wanna go get some more blankets?" noah asked millie while she nodded her head, i smirked and millie blushed. "i'll tell her to keep it secret, she's sweet," i heard millie whisper. "we should go to sleep guys," i turned next to me, jack was fast asleep, i brushed his fluffy hair and smiled. "kiss me goodnight?" i pecked his cheek, he closed his one eye. me and finn sat alone, "uh, i'm gonna go to sleep finn okay?" finn nodded his head and put a pillow over his head. i shouldn't feel bad but i do.

millie and noah came over with three huge blankets, noah put one over caleb and sadie and smiled, millie jumped over to me and put a blanket over all three of us, millie and noah slept in the corner, i winked at them. i know what i want and that's jack, not finn, but being in the middle makes me feel so guilty.

five in the morning

i attempted to get out of the small space that was in between finn and jack, when i finally did i ran to the bathroom. "shit, it's so cold," i sat down in the bathtub and took out my phone. i scrolled through spotify for a while, until reaching some good ol' tame impala. "u-uh sorry y/n," finn said, rushing into the bathroom, i wasn't naked or anything. "it's fine, i'm just listening to music be-" it was too awkward, he sat down on the floor and closed the door.

"fifth grade was stupid, i was ten years old and an asshole, but now i'm asking you to ignore that part of me and focus on the me now," he sighed, i looked down. "i'm not mad but, i don't know i feel sort of guilty after what i did back to you," i admitted. "friends? again," he asked, i nodded my head, the feelings from fifth grade rushed back into my head. "best friends," i hugged him, this was going to be hella hard.

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if i had to be just friends with finn wolfhard, i'd fail immediately

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