ALLEYWAYS | 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝

head in the clouds ☁️ [part one]

"i lost myself in the alleyways"

song [alleyways - the neighborhood]

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y/n's pov

"fuck," i whisper, desperatley searching for my extra spare keys, they are the only things that can help me get out of this hell hole. "y/n, are you looking for these?" my sister, rebecca, held up my house keys, "yeah, mom knew about them and asked me to take them! i did a great job finding it, also found other things like your membership to the blue palace!" god she was so fucking slick and annoying, i rolled my eyes. "cool rebecca, i honestly don't give a shit okay?"

rebecca slammed my bedroom door, i took my laptop downstairs and rushed into the garage. "what to do on a rainy day?" i asked myself as i set up my laptop, what first popped open was a reminder that it was my birthday tommorrow saying that i'll be turning fifteen tomorrow. to be honest, i have no fucking clue why i put that, or what fifteen meant until i thought really hard about it. two words. finn. wolfhard.

"i fucking hate that bitch," alleyways by the neighborhood started playing on my spotify, i close my eyes mouthing the words as tons of terrible memories came to mind. 

flashback (fifth grade)

finn wolfhard's my very best friend, i hang out with him every day, he's the one highlight of my day and my parents like him. honestly my parents just suck ass and hanging out with my friend just makes forget every terrible thing in this world.

"y/n, i know you hate us, and i know that you think it's alright for kids to hate their parents! but have you ever heard of a parent hating their kid?" mom had been yelling at me for the past week about how disrespectful i am, i only avoid my family because they're constantly judging me. how the fuck am i supposed to deal with that?

"you're not leaving this room until you learn to be a human being, no one will like you, not even me or your dad, nor your sister," she slapped me straight across the face, her fake long nails digging into my baby cheeks. it's the first time she's ever hit me, i'm in shock, i just had realized that  this world fucking sucks.

"did i st-stutter? go to your fucking room!" she was scared of herself at that moment and we all knew it. i ran to my room in tears, tasting the saltiness of my tears on the tip of my tounge. i slammed the door and kicked the wall. i wanted to get out of here.

i unlocked the window with the bobby pin from my bun, i had no idea how i even knew how to do that, i just remembered what they did in the movies. i tied a bunch of scarves together to try and avoid falling off and breaking my spine, mom would be even more mad at me. unfortunatley i fell off, landing on a soft bush that kept me from injury.

my petit body ran through the neighborhood frantically searching for finn wolfhard as he wasn't at his house. there he was at my neighboors house, i caught him before he went inside. "y/n? what are you doing outside, it's pouring?" he took me under a tree. "my mom slapped me, i don't want to go back there!  what if she does it again?" i cried. "trust me y/n, she won't, not now and not ever, i'll be here to protect you... no matter what!" finn and i stared at each other, two fifth graders who didn't even know what love fucking was. he kissed me fast but at the same time slowly, he let go of me and his eyes widened. as fast as he could, finn wolfhard ran, ran away from the one person who needed him. 

------------------- next morning

"where do you think you're going y/n?" my father stopped me at the door, "shouldn't you get a bite to eat first?" my father was obviously better than my mother but he was as useless as a fly, whenever mom had her bitch fits he'd just nod and agree, watching me get abused. "neverland asshole!" i finally cussed at them, i was so mad at finn, of course i liked him but he just ran away from me. i grabbed my bike and headed to his house.