Who Do I Love?

Reasons

Ayano's POV

Why Budo-senpai? Give him a chance? What did she mean?

I kept thinking about what she said. Budo-senpai has nothing to do with this, so why bring it up? We both know that me and her like one person, and that's Taro Yamada. She knows I don't like him but...Osana doesn't seem like the type of person to just say something so weird. Do you think....that maybe, just maybe, Budo-senpai likes me?

Nonononononononono..... Ayano that's impossible. Budo-senpai likes someone else right? And he doesn't seem to show any signs of liking me...So why?

Wait.

I'm beginning to act like a normal person now.

It feels like I'm not the yandere like I was before...I...let her go.

"I did want to become a normal person, right?" I say while falling to my knees and looking at my hand.

"I did want it right?!" I shout while crying. I look to the side to see my knife, my blood stained knife.

I get it and then cut myself in my palms. It hurts but, it's fine. It doesn't hurt that bad.Blood was then coming out. There's a lot of it too.

*

After healing my wound, I laid down on my bed, thinking endlessly about what I should do and my sudden personality change.

"Wait, what date is it today?" I ask to myself while looking at the calendar on my phone. I literally didn't know what day it is today.

Is it Saturday today?

(I didn't write any latest dates so let's just pretend it IS Saturday. Sorry for the inconvenience and for the stupidity of this book's author. If it's like a Friday or something, for now, let's pretend it was a holiday for them. Sorry!)

Okay, it is. Maybe I can call Osana somewhere? Nonononononononono... She'll probably think I'll kidnap her again...Or should I call Budo-senpai? Maybe I can learn some info that way... Ugh don't know!

"Godwhythehellisthishappeningtomeeeee!" I shout. This probably caught the attention of my neighbors but I didn't care. They wouldn't suspicious of me....right?

Ugh...Never mind. I have pretty much the whole day to think about it.

*
After hours of ranting and confusion. I figured out who I wanted to go to. I wanted to talk to them maybe at a cafe. I would really love some pastries and coffee. Weird for a yandere, right? Well I AM still human...Just my...Attitude or personality or something.

I go to Facebook to text Budo-senpai and Osana . Luckily, both of them are online (boi this is Wattpad! Anything could happen!). I clicked Budo-senpai first.

"Hey Budo-senpai. I was just thinking if you could spare some time to hang out.😅😅" I type. Hopefully he sees this quickly, but I kind of doubt it..

But as to my surprise, he saw it immediately and replied.

"Sure. I don't have anything to do. Where to? 🙂" He typed

" A cafe, maybe. And also, I was thinking if Osana could come. I haven't texted her yet tho..😂😂" I replied.

"KK. Ask her first tho... I'll w8. ☺️"

"OK. Thx 😄." The emoji wasn't really my thing but, I still do have to keep my image. Don't want senpai to hate me.

I went out of the chat and clicked on Osana's profile.

"Hey umm... Osana. I know you're still recovering but...I wanted to hang out with you. It's about Budo-senpai. You did mention him. About...giving him a chance. I haven't got rid of that thought for a while now. I'm also inviting Budo-senpai. He already accepted. 😫😫😫😫😫😣😣😣" I type this one with more emojis at the end. I'm not going to mention about what happened for now. Who knows, maybe this is her mom or dad or a relative or something. And if they see that I text about what happened they might be suspicious of me.

"Uhh....Hi. umm okay I guess. When? Where?" She typed without any emojis.

"4 pm. Le Blanc. Chill?" I type plainly. I wanted to keep this simple now. Typing the previous message took a lot of time. Budo-senpai must be wondering why it's taking a long time.

"KK. And, I haven't told anyone. Don't worry. And I trust you. I can probably deal with the "thing"  but... I still like him. Can I still be like that?" She types. Well, I guess...It's OK. I don't really mind, the only thing that I worry about is the fact he may fall in love with her.

I've read a book once, where two people who didn't know much about each other. They didn't have any special feelings towards the other partner but when they spend a lot of time with each other, no matter what or why they were together, even if they teased each other or hated each other at first, there's a chance they could develop special feelings.

"Yes. Do whatever you want. Just don't make him fall in love with you." I type.

"OK. Thx." She replies back.

"KK C ya later." I finish.

"Bye."

When she said goodbye, she went off. She wasn't online anymore.

"Taro-senpai....Why is it that you are the one that I like?" I say to myself.

Sometimes, I've wondered why he was the one I fell in love with. It could've been anyone else, but why him?

I hear different people say he's just a normal and average person. There wasn't really anything special about him. He had average grades, an average family, average school life, average status and he's an average boy.

Why was he the one?

Was always a question in my mind. Did I just fall in love with him with just an encounter? Do I really love him? Is he worth fighting for?

I won't know until I find out. I don't know when and I don't know how. But, I'll just go with the flow, hoping everything will be fine.

*
It was almost two o'clock and I was still on Facebook. Then, Osana suddenly went online and then posted something. I clicked on her profile to see what it was and what I saw next made my blood boil.

It was a picture of Osana and Senpai together at a park, smiling and next to each other. Senpai looks so happy that he even hugged Osana.

Was it better than I didn't let her out?

Senpai also went online, he posted something as well. It was them. A picture of them captured in his phone now. This made me angry once again. Most especially the description he wrote.

"A miracle has happened... Osana is back.. Thank you so much to everyone who helped in looking for her... and she finally returned!"

I don't think I'm mentally ready for later. I might kill her once I see her, right before Budo-senpai's eyes. And that might be the end of me.

My head hurts from thinking. It feels like I'm going crazy. My heart beats fast, and I'm breathing rapidly. My hands are clenching,too.

I want to kill her.

But I can't.

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Hi guys! I'm sorry for slow updates and a crappy new chapter! I've been having writer's block and it ain't so good. I am writing everyday but I write so little. I'm going to do the next chapter today so I can get a head start and also...
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Do you have any ideas for the new chapter? Like, what will she do? Should she kill, stay at home or play nice or ask Budo-senpai about what Osana said. But actually, I have many plans for Osana so I might now want her to be killed and I think, you guys know who she will end up with at the end.

By the way, should I have Budo-senpai or Osana or Senpai's POV? Or a third person one. Comment down below!