the fight back girl

part 1

Hurt,confused, ignored
Who am I?
Lost, invisible, wandering,
Where am I?
Why does it hurt when according to people  i dont even have any feelings,
Why does it slay when there is no one for my healing.
Why don't people say it on the face?
Why do they show just glimpses n trace?
If i'm mean say it out loud,
Back stabbing me, does that make you proud?
Or holding a sugar coated knife u r convincing me for a deal,
And then eventually on haunches you will make me kneel.
You will make me beg for a pity which was never really born in your heart,
And then so easily you will make me bleed with your dart.
You will make me feel guilty,
You will make me repent,
For a cause which was never done by me,
But alas! against me you will always hold a dissent.
I will cry and i will shout for someone who is deaf to my voice,
And you will easily fake a sad goodbye and later on rejoice.
Because u hardly ever cared about my existence,
Otherwise it wouldn't have been so easy for you to maintain this distance,
Which alas i've been crying over because it meant a lot to me,
But i wonder were you just wishing to be free?
To break this bond which i kept above anything else,
Never realized i was like any other amongst those twelve,
Those twelve people whom you picked according to your mood,
And then discarded them one by one,
Ending everything with your bitter fued.
But now that i have realized my worth,
Im not giving you other chances of mirth,
Im not letting u make me beg me,
Now you wait and see my face with extreme glee!