I definitely didn't sleep that night- with all the happy tears, questioning if my whole life was a dream and a little bit of imagining how my life will go with Phil in it. Dan, you gotta stop this stuff, you don't even know if you're going to even be close or stay friends.
The next day at school I was both extremely tired, and extremely excited to go home and talk to Phil. By the end of the day I was sitting at my computer so quickly you'd think I could teleport.
Should I wait for a message or...? Oh! He messaged me! Ahhhhhhhhhh he's perfect! I'm glad he only messaged me a few minutes ago; he'll think I'm weird if I take too long to respond. Or maybe just busy.
AmazingPhil: How was your day? :D
I mean it was okay but I was really just waiting to talk to Phil.
DanIsNotOnFire: it was ok :)
AmazingPhil: Only okay? :( why?
Ahhh he's so perfect he cares so much!
DanIsNotOnFire: It was just boring bc I wanted to talk to you
AmazingPhil: :D
AmazingPhil: really? You didnt have that good of a day just because you couldnt talk to me? Im not that great
DanIsNotOnFire: yes you are
AmazingPhil: :D thx
God, I love this man.
DanIsNotOnFire: how have u been
AmazingPhil: im pretty good actually
AmazingPhil: but I wish we could have talked earlier so you would have had a better day
Ahh he's so sweet!
"Dan! C'mon dinner's ready!" Ugh Mom why do you have to take away my time with Phil.
DanIsNotOnFire: sorry I hav to go eat bye ttyl
AmazingPhil: Bye! ttyl
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DanIsNotOnFire: hey how r u? :)
AmazingPhil: Im good!
DanIsNotOnFire: same here
I've been getting more confident over the past few weeks.
Amazinghil: Hey I was gonna ask you the other day but I forgot
DanIsNotOnFire: what?
AmazingPhil: do you have skype?
Ahhh! Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. This means I'll get to see him. And I know I can just watch his videos, but I'll be talking to him. And I'll get to see him more than the other subscribers. I'll see him like no one else.
I think this has made me just as shy and anxious as the first day.
Okay I need to reply, c'mon Dan.
DanIsNotOnFire: yeah its just DanIsNotOnFire
My hands trembled as I typed.
AmazingPhil: Cool mines AmazingPhil
AmazingPhil: Ill add u
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what!?
My life is great now.
We added each other on skype and then he messaged me.
AmazingPhil: ok u wanna skype now?
Now I'm smiling like an idiot.
DanIsNotOnFire: of course
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