Trapped in your secrets (nash grier)

Something new

I woke up the next morning. I was upset that nash didn't come last night but he was probably tried, I mean he has came three nights in a row. I sat up out of bed and I see Jessica doing her makeup. "where are you going? it's 8 o'clock in the morning" I asked her "outing with Cameron we are going to spend the day together." she said excited. I guess he texted her and asked her on a date. "oh ok I guess" I said "is something wrong?" she asked worried "haha no I'm happy for you, you go and have fun I'll stay here and see if nash can come over." I said smiling "thanks for not getting mad" she said. I just laid back down and said "no worries".

After Jessica left I was home all alone. my dad was at work and my mom and brother were at my aunts. I texted nash and asked him to come over. he didn't text me back I guess he's still asleep. I sat in my room watching tv for about 30 minutes then I hear the knock on my window. I knew it was nash I ran to the window and opened it. "Can I come in?" he asked with a little half smile "of course" I said smiling. he crawled in and hugged me then sat on my bed I followed and sat right by him. i was still in my pjs but he didn't care. his hair was wet and he smelt really good. I guess he had to shower and that's what took so long for him to come. We laid down and cuddled for a little bit. a few minutes later he sat up and pulled me with him. we stared making out and the kiss was getting heavier and heavier. I pulled off his shirt and he started kissing down my neck. I could feel his warm breath down my back and it only made me want him more. he pulled me on top of him still kissing my neck. We started making out again. I could feel his hands going up the back of my shirt to take it off leaving me In a sport bra and he was biting my bottom lip not to hard and not to soft. I couldn't keep my hands off him but then we heard the front door open. I pulled away I can see the want for more in his eyes. Jessica opened my door and sees us on my bed then closes the door as fast as she can. I got off from on top of him and me and nash started laughing "you can come in we were just kissing" I said laughing. she opened my door "oh I saw you on top of him and his shirt was off so I thought..." she said still a little in shock. then nash looked at me "i don't want to do anything Chrissy's not ready for I'd never disrespect her" I was so in love with him when he said that I got butterfly's but, before I could say anything Cameron walked in my room and stood by Jessica just looking at us with the same look on their face. I grabbed my shirt and put in on because I was only in a sport bra. Cameron and Jessica looked at each other and started laughing at us. I looked at at nash and he looked at me we both kinda smiled. I asked Jessica and Cameron to get out of my room for a second. "Come on babe let's at least let them finish" Cameron said joking to Jessica. he grabbed her hand the went to the living room. When me and nash where alone again he put on his shirt and said "I love you babe and I'm sorry, it was so hard for me to stop." I laughed "I love you too babe and you have nothing to be sorry for I liked it and I had a hard time stopping too. the way you make me feel is something I've never felt." he hugged me and kissed me on the forehead then moved down to give me a kiss on my lips but this kiss was different. it seemed like the world stopped it was just me and him and that's all I really cared about. "How did I get so lucky?" I asked him and he laughed and said "chrissy if anyone is lucky it's me. do you know how much I care about you? When you first looked at me with that little black bow in your hair I knew im was going to be with you forever." I felt like my body was shaking even though I just stood there looking in his beautiful blue eyes. I put my hands around his neck and pulled him down and whispered "I'll never stop loving you, I'll be yours forever." Then kissed he pulled me in with a stronger grip and kissed me again. After the kiss we went to see why Jessica and Cameron came back anyway. we walked to the living room and I see Cameron sitting on the couch and Jessica was laying down with her legs on him and he was running his hand up and down her right leg. Nash sat down and I sat by him and said "so why did you guys come back I thought we guys were going to spend the day together?" I asked Jessica and Cameron "Jessica left her wallet" Cameron said "oh yeah Im going to go grab it" Jessica said getting up to go get it. After she got it they left and it was just me and nash alone again. We went back to my room and he sat on my bed and I sat on the floor by my bed "what would have happened if Jessica didn't walk in?" I asked him. I love him I do but I don't know if I'm ready. "I don't know babe, I love you and I don't want anything you don't want but I'm going to be honest, I didn't want to stop." he said gazing down at me with his big blue eyes. "I love you too I just don't know if we are ready but I really didn't want to stop ether." I said gazing back at him. he got up and sat in front of me on the floor and brushed my hair back then moved his hand down my arm and held my hand and said "look chrissy, I want are first time to be special. Something we will never forget, a memory we will share forever."

*NASHS POV*

today, I really didn't mean for it to go so far but I couldn't help myself. the way her hazel eyes were shinning, her long brown hair fell so perfect without her even trying, the way her body felt on mine. I wanted her so bad. I love her so much and I'd never do anything she wasn't ready for but I could feel her hands rubbing down my body and the soft breaths she let out as I was kissing her neck. She smelt so good. I was having a hard time pulling away even as we heard the front door open. all I could think about was her and the way she made me feel. I know we aren't ready but she sure knows how to test me.

I wanted to ask her on another date but we cant really do much. I just wish I could take her out and show her off. I see the look on her face when we are in public and we cant even hold hands and it brakes me. I just want to be a normal couple. maybe I should just come out and tell my fans I mean true fans would want me to be happy. I don't know I don't want chrissy to be hurt by the mean and rude things my fans will tell her but I can see that hiding it is hurting her too.