HEART OF A RAPPER.

CHAPTER 04

2 months later....

["Are you sure about this Jennie-ah?"] eomma asked from the other line.

"I'm sure enough eomma." I answered her. I looked at Jisoo who's glaring at me while shaking her head. "Bye." not waiting for an answer, I finished the call and threw my phone on the sofa.

"Your out of your mind Jennie?!" she yelled but I didn't flinch. I just looked away.

"It's for the best Jisoo." I reasoned.

"For the best?! Well did you think about Yoongi?! Did you think about how he would feel?!" I shook my head.

Then images of Yoongi crying came into my mind. I covered my ears with my hands and closed my eyes shut shaking my head.

"How about Chaeyoung?! Did you think about her? How about if she wakes up with only me by her side?! How do you think would she take everything in, huh!?" she screamed.

"Stop." it's the only thing that came out of my mouth.

"How about--?!" she was about to continue it when I screamed.

"STOP!!!" I screamed and opened my eyes.

"How about me Jennie? Did you think about me before you decided to leave this country for good? Or no? Because all you think about now is yourself." she looked away and scoffed. "I can't believe Yoongi fell inlove with someone like you. Somone like you who's selfish. Someone like you who only thinks about herself." she stated.

I saw tears streaming down her cheeks. A Kim Jisoo crying because of me. Her best friend. I couldn't take that.

"I can't believe that I loved a person like you. I can't believe that I supported you. I can't believe that after everything that has happened you decide to leave everything behind just like that. Your a coward Jennie. Your nothing but a coward who only thinks about herself!" she screamed and ran out of the dorm.

I collapsed on the sofa and covered my face with my hands. That was the problem. I didn't think about anyone before I made a decision.

I cried. Again.

Yoongi. He was the only one I could think about now. What would his reaction be. I know I couldn't tell him. I just can't risk him crying infront of me begging for me to not leave.

Then I heard my phone ring. It's him. He's calling me. I couldn't move. I just don't know what to say to him right now.

So I did one thing.

I just stared at my phone until it stopped ringing then... I threw my phone on the wall.

I ran to our room and started packing. I'm leaving this dawn and no one will stop me. Even if it's... Yoongi.

I just couldn't risk loving him. He might also leave me when the time comes.

Wait for me New Zealand. I'm coming back.

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