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Okay so, I broke up with this girl who I had supposedly had asked out because I was curious to what she would say. Week later, I broke up with her in a text. Then I got with this guy. He was actually my best friend. He was kinda mad at me and the girl when we started ya know. So about a week after breaking up with her, he asks me out. I said yeah. The actual first thing he ever said to me was"Do you like my eyes?". So we dated. Month later I broke up with him. I actually had a friend do it for me. The reason behind this was he wouldn't talk to me. I wouldn't get hugs before the end of the day. I wouldn't even get a hi in the morning. So yeah i broke up with him. I tried asking him what was wrong, no answer. Month later i ask her out again after getting rejected twice. She says yes. Kissed once wasn't first kiss had plenty of those. Then broke up with her today through text. The only reason I asked out anyone after 'him' is because i was desperate and guilty. Now he's ignoring me. Always play fights with me but still hits pretty hard. Always seems to be mad at me or just mad in general. I was going to say my first i love you, but that's when he first started ignoring me. His friends would tell me he talks about me a lot or that he loves you very much. Now everything is awkward with everyone. I want him back. I still like-love him.

"It's like were on the edge right now.
I wish that I could say I'm proud.
I'm sorry that I let you down.
All these voices in my head get loud.
I wish that I could shut them out.
I'm sorry that I let you down.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry
That I let you down."

*Sigh
What do I do?
A: bts fangirl
B: read bts x reader smut
C: cry
D: all of the above

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I choose b tho.