Ever have a hard time coming to terms with yourself? Like, as an existing figure in time? A bad Mulan reference everyday at the sight of your own face.
Of my face.
In effort to see what you see, I distorted my image of me.
I've photoshopped my face so bad in my head, that I hardly recognize it as a whole.
I see my lips with the left side being higher than the right,
my eyes being ever so slightly crossed,
every freckle and every pore.
But, for some reason, I can never piece it together. I don't see my face. All I see is the individual components that make it up.
But, it also means every time I was hit, it wasn't me.
Ever been slapped in the face, feel it and yet again did not?
Every hit sent me further into an OBE , with every bit of pain inflicted onto me. Is it normal to your own body from a 3rd person but still be the 1st person, while the 2nd person thinks it's okay to treat you this way?
Then, when they're done, the only thing they say is "Get Over It" when you're still not in yourself, still not in your own mind, still not feeling your own pain? I'm hesitant. I don't want to go back in my own body, and feel that. Imagine running away because you're always under attack.
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Fat Raven girl, did you know I'd take him away?
I didn't.
I'm not sorry though.
Such a lovely man and you didn't see, or was it didn't care?
I don't steal,
or lie.
Unlike you.
Sad too.
His princess protection program is impregnable,
thought I'd let you know
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Unbeautiful
SpiritualShe's uninteresting. She's not beautiful, She's not unique. Her depression is an obsession of her mind trying to find what's wrong, and why is she always second best. Sometimes it's poetry, Sometimes it's stories. The likes are validating because sh...
