someone's always watching

the tragety

one day i had it all, parents perfect grades friends brothers sisters i had it all but now it's gone. I'm gone.

first you need to know about me before it all started
1.there was seven people in my family
1 parents so two
2 Chris eldest 22 never really got to know him
3 Sam in high school best gay brother EVER seventeen
3 me gay name Emma twelve
4 Derek ten kind sweet
5 Leah seizure prone never stops talking! She's really funny
this is my family and i love them, Sam is being bullied because word got around that he is gay, but he has gone to teachers even the principal but nothing has happened he plans to transfer soon. i'm also gay so it really upsets me to see Sam get bullied he did nothing wrong! And it's not a bad thing, he came out last month to my parents and to school he wore a hat and forgot to take it off that said 'i'm gay and i'm proud' "EMMA RICHARD!" my teacher screamed in my face snapping back to reality i am in gym and just got hit in the face with a soccer ball and my nose was gushing blood like everywhere's a nurse came running into the gym i stood up swaying just alittle bit and headed towards the door i started running towards it i opened it ran down the hall and got sight of a image i'll never get rid of i screamed coach who is the gym teacher and his name is french and no one can pronounce it so everyone calls her coach, came running down the hall and so did the nurse i walked into the boys bathroom and saw my brother he comminted suicide. i knew he was dead. i cupped my hand over my mouth the other was pointed at his lifeless body i slid my body down a wall then stood up and ran down the hall i ran stright into the principal i grabbed his hand in fury and dragged him into the bathroom and started screaming "LOOK!! SEE?! THE GAY PERSON WHO COMMITTED SUICIDE DUE TO YOU NOT DOING ANYTHING EVEN WHEN SAM WAS KEYED IN THE FACE AND I CALLED THE COPS!!! I DID SHIT!! MY BROTHER'S DEATH IS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!" i screamed at the principal then ran out of the bathrooom and pulled my phone out calling   my parents,cops and Chris (the eldest) my parents walked through the doors my dad pushing people out of the way to get to Sam mom wrapped me up in a hug and then she walked in and saw the body the cops arrived then Chris walked theough the doors got onto his knees and hugged me i am short only five feet and that is with a couple inches then looked at Sam right before they zipped his body up Chris slid his hand down the bag and pulled out Sam's belongings Chris got Sam's locker combination and a envelope that was decent sized i opened it to find three different letters one adressed at me other to Chris and the other to mom and dad, i gave them the letters  and last his glasses which he handed to me and his hat that he wore starting his hell i put that on my head then they wheeled my best friends body out of the school and to the funeral home i returned my attention to the letter i busted it open and read it with tears already in my eyes
Dear Emma,
i know that you will forver miss me but don't worry i will watch over you and i'll see you in heaven when you get up here i just wanted to say thank you for sitting with me at lunch when i had no one to sit with for getting my cigarettes from my locker when you skipped classes when i was crying and needed someone to be with, and got in trouble for skipping for beating up Steven,yes i saw you. Every time i was hit kicked or punched you'd watch me walk away because you know i don't like violence except in video games, and you's beat him twice as hard sometimes getting hit yourself i know this, sudden death will give you depression but like in that movie with dory in it Finding Nemo maybe? Just keep swimming Just keep swimming do it live your life be openly gay and don't let people get you down you are special so now as you read this i will be dead so, i leave you with tjis just keep swimming my little angel
your brother you will miss you
Sam P.S. take my glasses i'm wearing contacts so we are good don't forget to clean them
i cried and cried Chris came over hugged me then picked me up bridal style as we walked out of the school building.
oh Sam
one week later
it still hurts to say his name i haven't spoken since his death i was closest to him i dropped twenty pounds because i'm also not eating enough i really don't come out of Sam's room anymore which is also my roomno one is allowed to touch is stuff either my brother had OCD so everything is the way he liked it
our room was always clean because we have OCD and even with his death it still stays clean "hey Em," my cousin who was bysexual Jake walked through the door he layed on my bed "his funeral is today so i need you to get dressed you are wearing your plain black dress and black boots kk?" i nodded
-----in the car heading towards the funeral-----
a song was on not sure what it's called i am sitting in the front passenger seat i am twirling a pen in my finger's. My family toke two cars one for realatives and the other one the one i'm in has my cousin and his parents and two other siblings that are in college and Chris and me. We came to the intersection when my parent's car slammed on the breaks but they were too late. A huge transport hit them, then HE TRIED TO KEEP GOING!! and hit our car killing Chris, his small knife cut my seatbelt and i flew through the windsheild people screamed people cried my family died and on the way to my brother's funeral wow,this is AWESOME!! (sarcasm)
i was being crushed under a transport trucks tire and they had to use the jaws to get me out "it's going to be okay" Jake's dad told me in a whisper they had to sedate me on the spot because i was too stressed and had seen enough people i love die and for that i'm so greatful i squeezed my uncle's hand my whole body aching then darkness came and i ran to it i let it engulf me in a hug all the pain left the sirens too, the screams of terror gone my line of vision gone and for once my brain was at ease for the first time in a month i was truly happy.
          author's note
hey there Merry christmas it's tomorrow!! Poor Em, anyways this is based off of me actually, i am gay and when i came out to my school by accident i was bullied, i got depression and anxiety and i was only in grade six luckily i got new friends and i still have a little depression but not as much as before, bullying hurts! Plz if this is happening to you then get help, you are worth something and we can stop bullying. Anyways, have a safe and happy Merry Christmas or hanaka or whatever you celebrate!!