The Big change -
Gina Captijn
2014
Memories
It was a unusual summers day. last year around this time I was here too. I watched the sunset at sea, but I wasn't alone. I was here with my husband to celebrate our anniversary. We had been married for only 5 years. Those 5 years were the most amazing years of my life.
My husband Mike and I met each other here on the beach. It wasn't love at first sight but it was the love of my life. This beach holds so many memories it hurts. Not having him here hurts. You see my husband and I didn't Divorce or something. No we were separated by fate. He died of cancer 2 months ago. He wanted me to come here at our anniversary to celebrate it one more time. He believed in haven, what his suffering more bearable made I think.
So this day isn't exactly the most usual day for me.
Even though the past 2 months had been hard, I had to move on. He wanted me to. So as asked I tried, I even went on a view dates. The guys were amazing but they aren't Mike. I thought it'd be a bit easier, but it definitely wasn't. So after those dates I moved back to my parents House. I couldn't be in our old apartment anymore. I felt his presence all the time, and that made me feel like I would never be able to move on. So I figured to move on you need to change a bit. So that's what I'm doing here.
