Loving him is my mistake(#wattys 2019)

Chapter 4

Yashwanth p.o.v:-

"Oh god! Jai stop it.Its enough."I said.If he is infront of me,he might have seen my anger.

"It isn't a small thing brother.At least tell me her name?"He asked again.

"Jai,its true that I didn't called you these three days,but that doesn't means I found a girl.Actually,I am angry at you.I didn't yet forgotten the mess you made before leaving."I said.

He laughed,"Brother,its not a mess.It just a small issue."

"A girl slapping me isn't a small issue."I wanted to slap this guy now and my mind suddenly to Krithi.I felt bad again for slapping her.I had raised hand on a girl without reason.So shame of me.

"Yashwanth..."I heard a shout and I realized that Jai is still talking.

"Why you are shouting?"

"Look,you are zoned out.You are totally into this girl."I can see his face with his mischevious grin.

"Jai.You know what,I am going to hang up the call.Good night-sorry good morning, brother."I said and cut his call without listening him.

Jai is my brother,lives in New York. I didn't call him from last three days and he thought that I found a girl and ignored him.How crazy he is? He knows me.He knows that I am not into that shit relationships or dating.Yet he thought I am with a girl.

Actually,I am with a girl,but I am also with her friends,so,technically,I am not with that girl only.

My phone beeped with a text.

Jai:You need not to avoid me brother.Besides,I have right to know everything.If you are feeling uncomfortable to talk,text me bro.

His text ended with a emoji winking.I rolled my eyes placing the mobile on night stand and prepared to sleep.

I really wonder why he is thinking that so easily because he knows I don't like girls.Umm,Don't get any wrong idea.I am straight.I even tried two relationships,but nothing worked out.

I got into a relation,when I was 16.I don't want it,but every guy is eager to know how it feels when kissing a girl,romance making out and all.I,too had a thought of experiencing about these things,but never liked any girl specific.But my childhood buddy,Goutham forced me into my class mate,Tina.She is beautiful and I had talked her just because she is topper.I thought it cool to date her.But that relation didn't even last three weeks.Because she isn't a girl who never talks anything funny.She is just like me,always thinking about physics and mathematics.I felt like I wanted someone different.

The next with Natasha,Goutham's cousin.She is funny and cool.I liked her and I started dating.She is my first kiss.She even wanted to try more,but I refused her.I never had a thought to do more with her.Though,my behaviour is against her opinions,we tried to maintain our relation.

At the same time,Goutham too got into relations.He dated a new girl every week.He is still continuing it,which I am ignoring these days,but watching him with a new girl doesn't make me feel good.Few girls go out with him,even though they knew he is play boy.Its not fun all the time.

We got into a relation not just for romance.We have to feel something more than that.Seeing Goutham made me sick about this dating thing and Tasha started behaving possessive.She wanted to be with me every time.She always takes me to shopping.At first,I don't know why she had to take me,but eventually,I came to know that I was there to pay her bills.

Slowly,I felt like I was her paying machine and in return she is allowing him to make out with her.After four months,I am disgusted for myself.I felt it is not the relation I wanted.I told her that I can't do this anymore and also told her reason that I don't want to be her money machine and she argued that what wrong in spenting money when I am getting favours from her.Her arguement made me feel even more disgusted.Its an end.