My Poetry

Why?

Why?
Why don't you get annoyed?
Why don't you tell me to stop talking to you?
You think I'm being a crazy
Yet you don't want me to be with you
You say you want me closer than ever
Yet push me away the second I get close to you
Why don't you tell me to leave you alone?
To stop looking at you?
To stop trying to find you in the hallways?
To go away because you don't need me.
Why do you let me come so close?
Yet push me further away when i'm almost to you?
One step forward and two steps back.
You thought we were just friends.
No one else thought the same
Although your body says the complete opposite.
I know you are in pain
Why didn't you push me away in the beginning?
Why didn't you push away the weird girl in your first block?
Why didn't you tell me to go away?
Why didn't you tell me that I wasn't wanted?
Why didn't you tell me that you didn't want to be with me?
You say you never said that
But I see it in your eyes
It hurts, you know
I didn't realize that I wasn't wanted
And now I feel like a fool for letting myself grow attached to you.
I wish I could keep fighting
But I only have so much strength
I would only see you for ten more times
I will only be able to hug you ten more times
Everything has been suddenly limited to ten stupid days.
And we would've had none
If only you had pushed me away.
And I have been having this constant battle in my head
Wishing that we never met
Or that we met earlier
I never did realize how important you are to me.
But all good things come to an end
You always reach the end of a book
Even if it doesn't have a happy ending
There are no more pages to this book
I know that you don't need me
Just tell me to be gone and I will
My heart will go on.
And I hope you don't forget me.
Or forget me
I am just some trashy girl for the poor side of the city.
I'm not important to anyone.
You say you will never forget me.
You say you don't care about where I live or how I am.
You 'care' about my personality
But just wait until you find out my inside is just as bad as what surrounds me.
I can see straight through your lie
You say you don't know what you did
And you have done nothing wrong
And yet you apologize
I started everything which mean I have to end it too.
Nothing had to be this way.
It would of all been different If you had only said yes.
And not in the relationship way.
It doesn't matter anymore
What matters is that you are still not going to be with me
Open hearted and all I had come to you
Now you cast me away, as if I had put a spell on you
Why