familiar scent❤

Not goodbye yet

**HER STORY**

I looked at my music box that was on my dressing table. Looking at it reminded me of Exavier, it reminded me of my first time I touched him and rested my head on his chest that smelt of such a musky aroma . I wished he could come over. Did I perhaps scare him when we were at Mrs.Olba's? Nothing I was thinking really made sense. He told me he would see me before going off to the war, or did he not and I was just making up conversations I wish I had with him. Every time I heard a knock at the door I would make a little prayer that it was him. It never was him. I went downstairs to the home telephone that was plastered on the wall, very close to the front door to call Uncle Fred.

"Good Evening Uncle, its Mayflower. I was just wondering if Exavier has left for the war yet." I said, as I twisted the cord of the telephone. Deeply hoping that he actually had to leave early and that's why he couldn't come over. Sadly, that wasn't the case.

"Oh , he Is meant to be leaving tomorrow morning. Would you like to speak to him?" He replied.

"Yes please, that would be nice."

"Why hello there May'. Took you long enough " Exavier said. I could hear his smile over the telephone.

"Exavier. I've been waiting for you to show up all day. You never even told me you could not anymore. You probably just decided not to come anymore" I replied trying to hide the sadness in my voice.

"Oh...about that..well I uh-" Exavier began to stutter. "Who's that babe?" I heard a voice say on the other side of the phone. A woman's voice. It couldn't be Exaviers mother because she passed away. To make my head feel heavier, she called him babe. Did he have a girlfriend? Well what else could I expect. Of course the most sexiest guy I know just has to be taken. I was so stupid for thinking he actually wanted me and me alone.

"Oh I'm sorry didn't know you were busy. I actually need to go right now" I quickly said as I slammed the telephone down. For some reason tears started pouring out of my eyes. Was I actually in love with him? Half my brain was telling me I was over thinking this but the other half  kept telling me 'I told you so'. How could I be so blinded to not think he has someone in his life. Just because he kissed me? So what. Maybe he does that to all girls. My mind was going through a billion km/h. I wanted him to explain himself but to also hold me and tell me it's just a friend and he loves me.

I ran outside to Mundo's house. I don't really know why but I felt like revenge was necessary. I furiously knocked on their door. After a couple of minutes Mundo opened the door. He seemed extremely surprised to see me. I suppose this is because I tried running away from him the last time I saw him. He had band-aids all over his face and his bottom lip was red and puffy. "I'm sorry my friend hurt you" I found myself blurt out. I have no idea why I was apologizing to him. He didn't deserve it. But right when I said that his frown turned into a grin and he proceeded to hug me very tightly. "No worry ! Come in" he said , not giving me a choice as he pulled me into the corridor.  "What bring you here" he asked as he stared at my breasts. I totally forgot that today I was wearing clothing a lot more revealing than usual. I had worn a short , low cut dress today. Mainly because I thought Exavier was coming over and I wanted to attract him. "I .. wanted to finish what we had started in you room yesterday..." I awkwardly said. I couldn't even believe what I was saying. He didn't either because his eyes opened up really big once those words left my mouth. He started hysterically laughing. I didn't really see what was so funny. Did I really want to lose my virginity to Mundo? The answer is obviously no but after everything that's been happening I felt like I should practice it. The night Exavier left my house on my birthday, I couldn't stop thinking about all the different sexual things I wanted. I don't know what Exavier did to my brain but I couldn't think straight. "Okay well I'll just leave then.." I said as Mundo continued to laugh. He was laughing so hard tears were streaming down his face. I let myself out and decided to pay Exavier a visit.

I have no idea where this bold me was coming from but I was kind of loving it. As I walked down the street many older men kept cat calling me and whistling at me. I kind of liked getting this attention. It was nice thinking people found me sexy and beautiful. I'm known in my town as that reserved girl who goes to church all the time and always stays in. I guess that is who I am. Mainly because mother has raised me that way and I don't really know how to go out of my comfort zone. I wish I was like the other girls who had guys surrounding them. Girls who had plans every Friday night that didn't include church or their mother. I wanted to be like those girls. I wanted to be loved and wanted by all the girls my age .

"Exavier you better come out here!!" I found myself screaming at his front porch. I had drawn attention and I even heard a few "ouuu's". A small crowd started to surround the house. Almost immediately Exavier came out. He was wearing grey jogging pants and a white v-neck shirt. His hair was all messy. He looked absolutely sexy. My throat tightened up and my whole body started feeling hot. Suddenly I felt awkward that I was here acting all crazy. He didn't deserve this from me. He looked at me with one eyebrow raised and his hands were crossed by his chest. All I could think of was resting my head there as he kissed the top of my hair. I started thinking too many thoughts. I just ran into his arms and hugged him. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess I really wasn't thinking but it felt right. He hugged me back securely and whispered "come inside beautiful".