"you don't have to be scared." he mutters when we make our way out the back doors.
"who said i was?" i retort, breathing in the fresh air of mid march. i stand against the brick wall, arms crossed, and he stands in front of me.
"you're shaking sweetheart."
"am not." i try to defend while i our my slightly shaking hands at my sides. why am i shaking? he brings his lips close to mine, his eyes looking deep into mine.
"what's wrong?" he's searching me, and he won't stop until he gets an answer. i nervously reply.
"why would you like me? out of all people?" i whisper, tears welled up in my eyes now. why cry now? can't you wait?
"you're the first person i've met that's the most like me."
"what about your brother?"
"he doesn't count." ethan jokes a little, and silence is shared between us. finally, he leans forward that little bit, kissing me slowly.
"love me?" i blurt out when he pulls away for a breath. his eyebrows raise in question.
"can you love me? do you love me?" here are my insecurities coming out. i just have to mess everything up, don't i.
"i do. i love you so much."
"y-you do?"
"jeez, you have no idea how long i've been waiting to tell you that."
"i would say about five months." i giggle, my finger running over his lips. in between kisses, we muttered 'i love yous' and 'babys' while all i could think was, he's totally worth skipping class for.
on the drive there, i held his hand on the center console the entire time, afraid to let go. he parked the car in the driveway, using my key to unlock the front door. when we got inside, i was in complete bliss while he kissed any inch of my skin he could get to while slamming the front door behind us.
"she won't be home for another few hours." ethan assures when we reach my bedroom and he's closed the wooden door. the only noise is our panting when i crawl into my bed, not taking my eyes off him.
this is it.
i was really going to do this, with someone i met merely five months ago. someone who hit on me relentlessly for weeks before i finally gave in.
he climbs on top of me, taking off our last articles of clothing, and i feel completely exposed, and....scared. suddenly, all we are is two teenagers getting as close as two people could possibly be, all while in complete and utter ecstasy.
