Broken minds

2- Death and Fortitude

Alice's Pov

A/N:This chapter has a lot of swearing, because yeah It's also unedited.

            Walking to your house was a bother, someone questioning your scars was also bothering me. Why did I turn shy again? Why , Why , Why.  Kora was nice so why couldn't I just initiate a normal conversation ? She was blunt about the scars and I was surprised she noticed them. Her hair was nice.... She was nice... Being with her was nice? Did I develop a 'crush?',

            Still , it was nice talking to her, but I probably won't be able to see her again. She probably was popular and I don't think she would accept me as a friend. I probably was too optimistic around her. I laugh a lot from what I noticed about myself, even with the stupidest joke.

           My house was probably nearby already. I mean I do see the occasional Pitbull running around. My neighborhood was quiet. Not much to it, aside from a few screaming kids and a barking dog it was relatively quiet.

            And then I was at my house,huh... I thought it wasn't that near. A small bark caught my attention Ally. The small black and white shiba inu ran to her. Tackling me, Ally had toppled me onto the ground.

Ally dragged her tongue across my face, slobbering it with saliva. Gross....

I laughed picking Ally up. The smol puppy whined trying to continue licking her face. I chuckled at Ally's attempt and opened her front door. After entering my house I removed my shoes, placing down the Shiba Inu.

           Letting Ally roam around the house, I close the door locking it. I take a deep breath and roam my hands through my hair. Going straight towards my room, I immediately lock the door .

           Fucking hell, why can't I just act normal? I get my phone, turning it on and checking the messages.

3 missed calls 5 messages

         Well O-fucking-K new messages,should I even fucking check my messages. Take deep breaths, stay calm and stop swearing in your fucking mind goddamnit. I should really vent out my anger instead of keeping it in me.
I start reading the messages

Anna: Yu na ,me and your father aren't going home till tommorow
Anna:Be responsible
Anna:I know we don't get along but please be safe
Anna:Please Honey, listen to me.
Anna: I hope you see this

I type in a quick response

Alyssa: it's fine mom, I'll be safe.

           She isn't even my real mom, why does she have the right to freaking boss me around, take deep breaths Alice, she even called me by my second name, who does that?

          I quickly turn off the phone , placing it on my bedside table.

          Just stay happy Alice, don't think about it, just be happy. I took a deep breath.  Don't think about sad stuff, stay happy. You will be happier if you stop acting so sad all the time.

          Small steps, I take another breath, I step towards my cabinet . I touch the doorknob, pulling it open by force. I take another breath.

         GOD FUCKING DAMNIT YOU SAID YOU WOULD STOP. I close the cabinet with force the sound shocking me. Calm down Alice. Calm down. Take a breath, stay calm, think about jokes laugh a little.

         Isn't that better, deep breaths Alice, deep breaths.

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         Scrolling through my computer I enter DeviantArt, submitting a new post. It was nice to feel loved for a second or so.

          Ding! Huh a notification from my messaging app.

Barrigapocalypse: Hey! @ OfficiallyGay are you awake?

You:Yep, hey Blue

Barrigapocalypse: Are u okay? You kinda left the stream really early

You: Blue you literally started the stream 12 am  from where I am

Barrigapocalypse:So what? I'm concerned you usually don't skip streams

You: I have school?? I know you live in Europe and don't have school, but I Atleast need to be not 'Lonely and tired' during school

Barrigapocalypse changed Barrigapocalypse's name too CaringforOfficiallyGay

You: wow using my tumblr name is definitely going to help you find out what's wroob with me

You:*wrong

You: GTG it's 10:pm and I gotta get some sleep

You changed your name to FuckoffBlueshit

CaringforOfficiallyGay: wow cold much, night OfficiallyGay.

CaringforOfficiallyGay changed CaringforOfficiallyGay's name to Blueshit

           I groan, sometimes Blue was a pain in the ass. I really shouldn't complain he's my only friend currently. I kinda lied to him, since it was just 8:00 pm. He's just sometimes a bother?

           But I do need that sleep, I would be too grumpy and may vent out anger on the other students. So I close the lights, let Ally in, and cuddle with her on my bed, tommorow is another day to keep my mouth shut

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