Connor POV
I walked into school head down not say a word but I could hear the heartless whispers of people talking about the bridge even though they could have been told lies but my scars say other wise so yeah I got this that will never be dropped until the day I leave this shit hole so yeah bring on the bullies can't wait suddenly someone bumps into me ''watch it homo'' he followed up by a group of popular pricks laughing I'm just walk away and wait for the bell something I usually hope never comes but its only thing that will get me out of this shit for that hour or two long class of freedom where bullies are the one who are picked on by the teachers and the walk become the strong as they are the ones who know everything and not the bullies who have the upper hand but when the bell for lunch goes the world was 3 has begun and god help me I step into the lunch hall I can already feel every eye one me I can hear every one whispering about me I go sit with Danny she is the only friend I have right now other then Chase she can help through this hopefully but before I get to the table she is at I am blocked by the guy who beat me up at the weekend ''where do think your going fag I don't think we are finished'' he said all eyes where on us he pushed me back and continues what he did at the weekend.
I get home and I just go to my room my family could give less of a fuck about me ever since my dad left my mom has never been the same me and my sister had to take care of our self mom is too depressed to do anything I step into my room and immediately lay on my bed and go on my phone only to see that I had gotten a text saying "go and die you fag what's the point of you being here" the only thing running through my mind was that they were right there was no point of me being here all I do I make people miserable I go to my bathroom and look in the mirror and look out if the corner of my eye I see something shiny and look over and I see them sitting there in all there glory the blade what if I just do it cut myself and everyone will be happy what if I do it and Chase he would be safe he would be happier without me I grab the blade and I slowly make a cut on my arm and it felt good like with every cut all of my worries where drifting away I look down at the cuts the blood slides down my arm then suddenly the door opens it was Chase he looks at me with fear on his face and tears staring to make a river down his beautiful face I crouch down I to his safe arms I cry and say "I did because what if I was gone you would be happier and no one could ever find out no one could hurt you" I say "but I'm so happy here with you Connor you've made so much more happy I feel like I can be me with Connor I love you" I look at him with love in my eyes "I love you too" our lips find each other I the knew that I needed him and he needed me and we both love each other so much and no one else gets a say in that he was mind and I was him I love him and I'm not ashamed of that.
