10 Things About Love

Kongpop's

2. You can never be too complacent that what is yours will always be yours. 

                                                                          "You know, I always dreamt of having a son, someone who looks almost the same as me," I said as I picked up a child's toy, smiling. I noticed how P'Arthit's expression changed, he just nodded as a response. Knowing P'Arthit and his crazy brain, he must be thinking that I'll be leaving him someday for a woman. See, that's what I love about him. He's willing to give up everything for my sake, he's willing to be hurt for my sake.

It's easy to be complacent with the love we have, to drown in the belief that what is mine will always be mine, that everything will remain the same, but sometimes I asked myself, is this what he really wanted? What about his dreams, his life... I felt like I have taken so much from him that someday... eventually he will get tired.

I'm afraid of getting used to this love...

I'm afraid of getting used to this warmth...

I'm afraid of getting used to the hands that gently caresses me...

I'm afraid of getting used to those eyes that only sees me...

I'm afraid that I might not let go...

P'Arthit, if someday you've grown tired of me, and felt like everything is exhausting you, and you're being drained, don't hesitate to let go. I would gladly comply, I won't ask you to stay, I won't ask you anything, I won't hesitate, I won't stand in the way... not because I didn't love you, I still do, and forever will, but mainly because I love you so much....

-K.S.