•Incubus *IN EDITING*

XXI

SALLYS POV:   (Diary entries?)
I'm changed. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't breath sometimes... I'm broken. God took my baby away from me, and I can never forgive him. Raphael is unaffected. He's just an asshole. I'm so pissy.
I don't feel the need to live anymore. I've hurt everyone who's ever cared for me, I can't have kids.. so why should I continue on? I have no sexual desire for Raphael.
I've been debating killing myself, but I'm just a coward. I don't even know how I would do it. Jump off a bridge? A building? Razorblade? There are many, many options. I don't know what else to do.

He still loves me. Very much. He was cuddling with me earlier. He gently cradled my head in his arms, and looked into my eyes. I don't feel love for him. I don't feel anything.
He hasn't forced me to do anything. He bathes me, feeds me, and takes care of me. I feel like a pet, not a human being. I am a human being, even though I don't feel like one.
I've always wanted to have a big, happy family. Now, I can't even have a family. I could always adopt, but I want my own children. It's not fair how other people can have kids without even trying, and I can't. And then there's people who get abortions, and abuse their children. It's just not fair.

     I got out of bed, and made raph some dinner. He never mentioned to me that he owned his own company, until a few days ago. He was working, and I felt bad. I didn't have the energy to work. I made him his favorite; chicken pot pie. I'm not sure if he'll eat it. I hope so, though.
He doesn't want me "like that" anymore. He found another girl. She's very beautiful. She's a brunette. A nice smile. Brown eyes. She's pretty much the opposite of me. She's very nice to him, and to me. He likes her.. a lot. She likes him too. He doesn't love me. He just takes care of me.

He brought her home tonight. They had dinner together so he didn't eat what I made him. Why? I try so hard sometimes and nothing happens. Ever. I'm just so done.
I just want to that Raphael for everything he's ever done for me. I want to thank Evan for being there. I want to thank my children for putting me through hell, even though they aren't here with me now. Thanks to June for putting up with me. I'm sorry to everyone who I've hurt, or done anything to.
Goodbye..

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YAYYY. THE END OF THE BOOK!! thank you all for reading, and enjoying it. Don't worry, the next book is coming out very soon. Thank you all again! I hope you enjoyed. I'm trying to get a lot better but... I'm not sure if I'm good or not. Anywayssss, stay tuned for the next book. (Sorry for the kinda sucky ending) :))