Dear You

Dear You ~~ Letter 1

Dear You,
I've loved you for a year. And even though you didn't love me back I continued to do so. My feelings continued to develop and I continued to fall deeper and deeper in a rabbit hole type love I would never escape from. But the question I asked myself was "Do I really want to stop loving him?" The answer, was yes but the answer was also no. So if I'm being completely honest with you, I have no clue what I'm feeling anymore. You say things to me which send my tummy spiraling and make butterflies just erupt everywhere. And I can't determine if that's accidental or you mean to do it.

I can't continue on the emotional roller coaster you have me on. I hate asking myself if you mean the things you say as a friend or more than that. You make all of my emotions go haywire and every time I see you my heart get all warm and it beats super fast and I honestly don't mind it. You've always been my rock, you keep me grounded. And I know it sounds silly, or cliche, but it's true. I wouldn't have survived this last year with out you. You make the days at school much easier to deal with, especially because you keep me from legitimately becoming a serial killer? But that's besides the point. Plus the fact you can help me with all my homework helps a bit as well.

I don't think me feeling this way was a choice nor was it a mistake. But I hope it'll continue because I love feeling this way, even if I'm in for heart break in the end.

Love
Me