Magcon Imagines

taylor imagine

ugh. fuck school. fuck life. I'm just done right now. the pain is just to much to handle. I already have a lot on my shoulders , I don't need anymore to carry. why couldn't I just be gone. disappear. you know. ugh. just why does my life have to suck.

I've always been the ugly one , the fat one , the unwanted one , and the one that no ones cares about. there's no reason to live. i give up.

I went into my bathroom and opened a drawer to reveal my hairbrush , bobby pins , hair ties , and razors. sharp pointy razors. as I sat down on the floor of my bedroom holding the sharpest razor I began to cry. like usual. but this time harder. I began to scream. like the monsters inside of me were trying to kill.

I was home alone. no one could hear me.

I brushed the razor across my wrists.

"wow I haven't done this in a while" I said to my self as the blood dropped on my brown carpet.

"it feels so good to let my pain go. now that I've began I can't stop. not again. I'm addicted. and no one can help ..."

as I stood up I began to feel dizzy. very dizzy. I've lost to much blood. and now all I see is Taylor Caniff my next door neighbor and ex-boyfriend holding me in his arms.

"Y/N are you okay ?! come on baby answer me !" he shouted

"I'm fine .. it's just .. it happened before .. but .. but .. I give up I can't anymore I can't hold it in ! I'm done I give up. I've stayed strong long enough. and .. and I can't anymore ! I'm sorry but you have to leave Taylor !" I said as I began to cry again.

"no Y/N I'm not leaving you ... not again ... it was the most stupid thing I have ever done Y/N I can't take it no more. seeing you self harm makes me feel horrible. I should've been there for you. I'm sorry baby i love you ..." said Taylor as he held me

"it wasn't your fault. you were there for me. in fact you were the only that was ever there for me. I guess when we split the pain got to me. and I guess I gave up. and now here I am. back at the start. I'm sorry Taylor" I said disappointed in myself

"baby no it's okay. we'll get trough this together. together forever remember ? (that was your little saying) I love you."

"no it's not okay. and yes we will. together forever :) I love you too."

you two kissed and watched netflix the rest of the day. he let you pick what movie you wanted. and of course you picked ' Clueless ' you loved that movie. it was your fave. you began saying "as if " all day long. you and Taylor were meant to be 💖