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Love shit

Alright, today I've been feeling a little low due to this fucking dude. He doesn't get that I don't fuck with a lot of people and for me to be messing with him is like... you know, it means you got my attention. I just feel stupid, you know what I mean? Like, here I am a girl who is getting all hyped over a boy, but it's true. I'm in no doubt falling for him and I am falling fast and hard.

Another thing is, he kind of caught my drift too. I like him, he likes me. Now, I'm a sucker for love. I can't help it really and some times it's shitty and fckn annoying. I mean, I'm not the kind of person to just fall in love with every boy I lay eyes on who is hot. I may think you're hot but that doesn't mean I like you. And just because I do like you doesn't mean that I'm willing to date just yet. This boy doesn't know how happy he makes me feeling AND IT'S SO FRUSTRATING. I feel like he is playing with my feelings because he would suddenly just stop talking to me and not talk again for like up to 3 days straight but when he does it's like all normal and like nothing happened. BLEH!

I don't date really or get into a serious relationship because most guys now days are just plain stupid. Not all guys but most. If they like you, they think they're in love. Like, boy calm down. You'll probably look at another pretty girl and say, "I love you." It's stupid. And if you don't give them what they want when they want it, it's like they drop out real fckn quick and move on. I swear, that happened to me this last month. I had a thing with this guy and he was telling me he loves me within the first day I told him that I liked him as well. He wrote me like two songs. The first song was him explaining how he got nervous around me and him confessing his "Love" for me. The second was him telling how much he "loved" me. And well, yeah that didn't last long, hahha. He's like an embarrassment to me.

These dudes now days don't know what love is. Love is when you have completely fallen for someone and you'll be down to be with them through whatever. Even if you're not together officially yet. You'd be willing to wait for a person. Go through thick and thin.

There are days where I think love is overrated. Only because love can hurt you and I feel when you fall in love you put yourself in risk of getting hurt. That doesn't stop me though, hahhaha. I feel like love is overrated for like a moment then I go back to wanting a boyfriend. UGHHHH!

I'll admit, I do want a boyfriend, but then I don't. I don't know, it's hard to explain. I want somebody who is will love me and my crazy ass and can be a crazy turd as well. I want somebody who can deal with my happy, sad, mad, sappy mood swings and shit. One who would just cuddle me and loooovvveeee meeee and make me feel loved.  One who can be freaky at the same time too. I'm going to be honest, who doesn't want a person who can be real and loving but hella freaky too? To me that is like the dreeeaaamm guy. And a guy who can dress up too GAHHHH i would love that.

I would also like a really hot girlfriend. One where we both hot together lol

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Anyways, you guys tell me what you think love is and what you look for in a person💞

See ya later loohoozuhhers... 😋