I woke up with my head ponding, after grad my parents decided they'd give in and let me drink at the after grad, harry and I had took full advantage of that. I looked around to see I was in Harrys room, like many other times in one of his big baggy Hollister shirts and a pair of his boxers. my heart aches knowing this routine I was so accustomed to would soon be foreign to me. I rolled over and snuggled into Harrys chest he stretched then hugged me pulling me even closer into him.
"morning baby." his voice was deep and still makes my knees go weak. his morning voice will always be my weakness. seconds later Harrys alarm went off and he sat up his lean chest showing bare. I traced his abs and he laughed because it tickled.
"weve got to get ready your flights soon." he said sitting up I frowned knowing that's the last thing I wanted to hear him say.
"can we stay in bed ill get another flight I don't want to go." he rolled his eyes and slapped my arse standing up.
"ow" I said stretching. I went to my luggage and grabbed sweats for today , might as well have this terrible plane ride and be comfy. mom and dad had said there goodbyes yesterday knowing id want to have as much time with harry before I left, they'd be coming to Washington soon to visit me where ill be staying with moms sister retah for the time being. so this time was harrys and our time.
"if we leave now well be able to stop by the coffee shop and say goodbye to kim." harry said I smiled ear to ear, kim had been my best friend since grade school the first day at that. I used to work at the coffee shop, the place had so many memories,
"id love that." I felt like I was trying to tip toe around the fact ill never see harry as much as I do now, ill see him on holidays, and im sure well see each other as much as we can , the flights kind of pricey but ill get dad to help pay for his ticket, he always loved harry. he had treated him like the son he never had, which I was thankful for. anne had said her goodbyes and thanked me for always being there for her and her son she started crying more then I excepted but I ended up crying tooo. I had loved her dearly. something about the way she said goodbye gave me chills and im still trying to shake it oof in the ride to the coffee shop. harry and I sang in the car like we always had my voice was nothing compared to his, he always was so shy to sing though. but I loved it, he used to sing me to sleep when itd be storming. I almost got lost staring at his face until he spoke up.
"I love you so much, you know that right." he said turning down the radio and placing his hand on my thigh as he drove. I nodded smiling.
"I do, I love you." I said we went into the store harry holding my hand tightly as I leaned into his figure . the bell to the door chimed once harry swung the door open and kim in her work outfit basically jumped over the front counter, she grabbed on to me and squeezed.
"im going to miss you." I said into our hug she pulled away and was smilling while I whipped off the feew tears that had came.
"theres no need to miss me." she stated playfully pushed her and she laughed at me.
"yeah okay I wont miss my bestfreind ive known my whole life you knuckle head ." I said she pulled an envelope out of her work apron and passed it too me. the envelope looked identical to the Washington state university letter I got . my mouth dropped and I looked up at her shocked.
" I made your mother promise me that I got to tell you first, I come down next week , im also suppose to give you this." she passed me another envelope and it had our names on it. I opened it to reveal an address and inside of the envelope was two sits of keys, I read further and it was a apartment.
"no fucking way." I gasped .
"yes way, my dad insisted ." mine and kims fathers were partners at the law ferm they owned, so they had money to spare, but had made both of us still work for what we wanted which id rather have that when anyways. harrys expression had dropped since kim had told me and I know why.
"I need to catch my flight ill see you next week kim." I cheered giving her back one of the keys to our apartment, OUR apartment. once we were in the car the ride was silent . I was really confused at harrys sudden change in mood but decided it was best too not question it. after we were in the parking complex for the airport harry took a deep breath then spoke not facing me.
"I need you too understand what im going to say right now and I need you to understand that im going to take it back or change my mind because its for the best." I felt a lump in my throat at his choice of words already not liking where this may lead.
"y-yes." I croaked out my voice above a whisper. he continued , his voice monotone but frail.
"I think - no I know itd be best for you if we broke up. " my head darted over too him and he still looked straight. I felt the wind basically get knocked out of me just by that sentence, we never really fought let alone say anything close in our two years of being together about breaking up.
"no." I stated. he shook his head then finally looked at me his eyes were glossy and I could tell her was trying not to cry.
"you don't get a say in this, its over Casey. you're going to go to Washington and you're going to farfel your dreams, and be the person you've always planned to be without me holding you back." tears were streaming down my face and I didn't care to stop them.
"you don't mean this, you don't mean ." I say he pulls his hand threw his hair and he forehead wrenkles.
"I do." he said I swung the door open and went to his trunk to retrieve my luggage. he jumps out and trys to help but I shove past him still sobbing dropping one of my bags and he picks it up I felt myself stumble and he grabs my arm.
"don't touch me." I said pulling my arm back.
"please don't be like this Casey, this is the last time ill see you again." I put my luggage down not feeling strong enough to carry it as my heart pounds. I walk away an he struggles to carry it all and follows behind me to take it into the airport. I stop crying and attempt to whip my now tear stained face. I heard my flight being called and go threw my luggage check out and grab y carry on from harry without saying a word. once they give one last call that my flight is boarding, I turn to harry feeling even more pain then I was before. Something I've never felt before.
"harry.." I whispered dryly my throat feeling as if itd crack.
"yes?" he asked gently stepping closer too me I know this isn't a good idea but im despite for his familiar touch.
"can I- can I just have one more kiss." I stated more then asked. he didn't answer and I shook my head tears escaping my face once again he grabbed onto my small wrist and spun me back to be facing him he didn't say anything he just kissed me. out off all the times weve kissed all fo the sparks ive always felt this one felt most bitter sweet. he kissed my forehead.
"I love you." he said before I walked towards my plane I looked back to see him sitting down on one of the benches crying. the hardest ive ever seen him cry, even worse then when his father left his mother, or the time Gemma got in a car accident. at that moment when I sat in the plane seat I felt like my whole world crashed around me. I didn't care about the glares I got from boarding passengers I just cried. I let everything out and felt my self unravel in the seat. this was suppose to be some new start, but I didn't want him too leave me, I wouldn't have token the damn offer If I had too of known hed leave me. I know were young, but he had always been my bestfriend, in middle school. he was my first for so many things, he was the first person I loved, I gave im my all and so did he and he is too humble and loving to keep this going while im away. I know his subconious is still telling him he did what was best for me because that's what had always happened in our relationship come to think of it . I feel asleep for the rest of the flight. trying to recollect my thoughts.
