Depression/Broken thoughts (a letter for you)

A letter for Him

why is it hard to move on?

      From

the one you love, the one who makes you happy, the one who makes your bad days gleam. the one who makes
your world stop. and it keeps spinning you around. thinking of him every single day. and suddenly it went so "Inexplicable".

First of all..

okay.. here it is..

why? why? my tears won't stop. cause of him. I don't know what to do. it drives me crazy.

can someone please tell me how to move on?every hour, every second, every inch in my mind can't stop thinking of him.. i wish i was still dreaming.

i wish i could turn back the time. the
time when the day I've gone wrong.
i know it's my fault. i know it's painful baby..
I'm sorry. i wish you're happy now.
i hope you're finding the right girl for you.

I hope all the things went through. i don't know how to say this but i still love you. but i can't. can't say it to you. because you're happy with someone. the moment i see you through my eyes. how happy you are. how happy you are with her.

Thank you. thank you for being a bestfriend to me. a bestfriend who knows what's the best for me.
A bestfriend who have lot's of efforts. A bestfriend who understands.
A bestfriend. my boyfriend. i mean ex. I'm sorry.

this year, i hope you're okay without me, I miss you. i miss the inch of you. i miss it how you kiss me through your lovely lips, your hands, how perfectly you are to me. i miss your smile your everything.

I'm truly sorry for what i've done to you. I'm sorry that you waste your life with me. i just regret all. all the stupid things.

Can i ask you something? Why did you leave me. i mean why are you not fighting for me. why is it easy for you to change. to change someone you love. Am i enough? Am i ugly? Cause you're tired? :(

I'm sorry, i just wanted to explain it to you. face to face but you walk away. toface our trials but it's complicated.  I'm happy, that you're happy with      someone. From now on, I'm gonna move on from you.