My life has started to go the right way again and I said goodbye to my addiction for good but I still have doubts about my life choices and it makes me more confused about everything.
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Still confused about myself and every regarding my future. I walk the "path" they told me was supposed to be "good" but I am still in the dark. Finding what makes me "happy" in this world is still unknown to me. I dive into life, living feeling empty. I like my addiction is gone for good but I love the rushing feeling of life is gone. I trying to figure out why I changed my way of life but I can't find any meaning behind it.
Luckily I got some good advice from an old friend. Something along the line " Happiness is self-defined to us individually, so the only thing I can say is that if you don't feel complete right now, start learning to enjoy who you are at the moment and let happiness find its way to you. Beware that you might perceive something you desire as happiness while it's not what would truly make you happy. It would only be temporary." I am relieved to be surrounded by people caring enough to help me deal with my dumb problems. I don't want to sound like a sad nigga all the time. Let this moment be about other people and not just me alone. When I am me ( Yann), I realize that I am just so tiny in this world yet I feel like the world does not fit me quite well. I have always had a hard time finding large enough clothes, or rather large enough heart for people to care about me. Maybe I need to give more relevance to myself to be considered as I see fit.
