Ginger & Sage

Chapter 9

"Okay...so....Sehun  remember when you were 11 and you were dating Ashley?"
"Why are you using my real name? But yes, what does this have to do with anything?"
"Well at that time you started to push me away, but that was a time I needed you the most."

I glance up to see Sehun's reaction, he looked intrigued, so I continued.

"It was the night I ran to your house and you were with Ashley."

Flashback

"Daddy" I repeatedly screamed and shook him over and over. I wished this was some kind of twisted nightmare, but no matter how much I wished I knew it was reality.

My parents died on the spot, not even the ambulance that came soon after could save them.

It was so chaotic there were detectives,police dogs, EMT's and firemen running all throughout the house, I could barely process it all and I could hardly see through my teary eyes. Out of fear I hid underneath the table so they wouldn't spot me. I planned on not coming out of hiding, that was until I saw them carry my father's dead body out of the living room.

"WAIT NO, DONT TAKE HIM, LEAVE HIM HERE!" I screamed
I ran up to the EMTs and tried to pull my dad away, but I was the one pulled instead. Using all my strength I kicked and screamed at the man carrying me away.

He removed me from the room and proceeded to calm me, he wrapped a blanket around me, stroked my hair and dried the tears from my eyes. He crouched down to my eye level and whispered to me very softly.
"Hi sweetheart, don't cry, hopefully your parents will be okay."
I sniffled up the remainder of my tears and gave the polite stranger a big hug.
"Now how about we get you a warm drink, does that sound good?
I crack a small party forced smile and nod in response.
The stranger smiles at me "Okay, show me the way to the kitchen?"
I stand and lead him to the kitchen
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The man makes me hot chocolate and leads me to to large ambulance
"Ever ridden in one of these?" he ask stroking my hair once again.
I hum and shake my head.
"Well there's a first for everything, climb in."

The ride was nice and really fun, I momentarily forgot that this very ambulance was holding my dead family members. It wasn't until I hopped out of the ambulance too soon and saw the four stretchers carrying them.

Shock. Pure shock. The only thing that can combat fear is action. And there are two actions. There's fight or flight. At this point I was done fighting so like a coward I chose flight.

I ran.
I ran as fast as my feet would take me.
I didn't worry if anyone was chasing me, and I didn't dare look back.
I ran to the one place I could find comfort and depend on.
And that was to you.

I broke out of my daydream and stare at Sehun. His eyes are glossy and there are tears threatening to spill. I let out a deep sigh for various reasons the most important being that I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my back. For all these years I've felt guilty that I left without giving him a reason, Sehun was and will forever be my best friend and when I left it broke my heart that eventually he would wonder why and I wouldn't be there to give him the answer.

But sadly nothing last forever, and once I tell him why I don't want him and Sage together I don't think he'll be so understanding.

"Do you remember the day I'm referring to?"
Sehun hangs his head shamefully and nods.
"I needed you that night, but you turned me away. Your best friend of 5 years and you gave me up for a..... For a girl." Tears now also spilling from my eyes.
"Kac I'm so sorry, I had no idea."
"I wont say it's okay because it's not, but it's now in the past so let's leave it there."
"Plus I can't be too mad because you won't be too pleased with me in a second."
"Why would I be-"
I shush Sehun so I can tell him the truth before I change my mind "Sehun, that night is the reason why I don't want you and Sage together...I saw the effect Ashley had on you and I would never want to relive that, especially not now when i'm practically at my breaking point. I know It's selfish of me and i'm sorry but i'm tired of being hurt.