Trust Issues (Dinah/You)

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Dinah's P.O.V

It's been a minute since the kiss, and I don't know if it was the right thing to run away after I did it and just leave her there like that in that state of mind, but I didn't know how she was gonna react and yeah I am a bad ass bitch but when it comes to feelings, mama isn't tryna be there for any of that so I just ditched, maybe I should apologise, but then again I shouldn't have to apologise for my feelings, maybe my actions but not my feelings.

9:01am Dinah 🙄: y/n, I'm sorry about yesterday, u know the kiss and all

9:25am Dinah 🙄: I dont wanna be annoying but can you at least reply? its been on my mind since I did it and I don't know whether or not I'm meant to be regretting it

9:54am Dinah 🙄: c'mon dawg just a simple "its okay don't worry about it" would be nice, stop leaving me here questioning myself

10:10am Dinah 🙄: stg if you don't answer me you're boutta catch these hands

10:24am Dinah 🙄: can we talk about yesterday or are you gonna keep ignoring me

11:23am Y/N: not right now, I need to sort out some shit, if its really that important then come see me in an hour at the cafe near school.

11:23am Dinah 🙄: sure

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y/n P.O.V

I'm at court right now trying to sort out a restraining order against becca, but seeing that she's my legal guardian and I'm only 17 its a lot harder then I thought it would be, because theres no one else that can take me into their legal care and if I do get a restraining order on her then ill be an orphan and ill get put into an orphanage in New York, and since I'm in Philadelphia thats at least a 2 hour drive, and 1 that would be too far to drive to school everyday so id have to move schools and leave everyone, and 2 I wouldn't have anyone to drive me to Philly every single day. They're giving me 24 hours before I can make this decision and there isn't really any other options right now.

2 hours later

I got out of court an hour ago and I'm on my way to go see Dinah, I don't know whats gonna happen, I don't know if anythings gonna happen between us, I don't know if she regrets it and if I'm true to myself then to be honest, I do want something with Dinah but if I'm gonna be moving to New York then I don't want something because I can't do long distance and being senior year and all I can't really take time out of school to come down and visit her every week, wait what am I saying? it was just a kiss, shut up y/n

"You finally made it" Dinah said looking up from the table she reserved for us

"Yeah sorry, I got caught up with some things, so uh what is it that you wanted to talk about?"

"Yesterday, the kiss, I'm sorry if it was wrong, unless you're not okay with it then I don't regret it, I did what I did because I like you y/n." woah, shit she likes me this is bad timing, do I like her back? I've been a dick to her the whole time I've known her how could she like me? plus she's the literal definition of perfection, what makes her like me is beyond me, but even if I do like her I can't, what if I become an orphan

"y/n?" Dinah snapped me out of my thoughts

"oh uh s-sorry, I've just got a lot of my mind, and listen Dinah I need to think about this, I don't know how I feel or what I should feel, I have to go, I'll see you at school yeah?"

"No wait y/n"

"Yeah?"

"With Rebecca and everything and I know you and Justin had a fight, if you don't mind me asking, where are you going, like where are you sleeping tonight?"

"Dunno I'll probably find a park bench or some shit"

"Dawg, you cant sleep on a park bench, spend the night at mine, nothing intimate, you can have my bed and I'll sleep on the couch, but you can't be on a park bench"

"I don't know din-"

"I don't care, you're staying at mine, we don't even need to talk to you want some quiet, I'll leave you alone, I just want you to be safe"

"Are you sure?"

"nah fuck that, I was joking"

"Fuck you"

"I was just playin dog, c'mon I'll send you the address"