Notes and Letters of a Chaotic Mind

Letter to 2018: feel good / empower (?)

Dear 2018,

Be you. Do whatever the hell you want. Make this year your b!tch. Remember that you don't owe anyone a n y t h i n g. Know that you are not alone and that your family loves you and your friends love you. Say no sometimes. Perhaps, say no all the time. Don't do something that you don't want to do and be honest- maybe at some point you will have to be brutally honest, but it'll be okay, you can do it! Learn to love yourself, or maybe (if that's a bit too hard for you to do, like it is for me) learn to love parts of yourself.
Be angry. Be INFURIATED. You have the right to project your feelings (not in a Violent or hurtful way oc). You are allowed to be sad. You are allowed to cry, it  is. Not. Weak. People will tell you (in annoyed way... sometimes...) that sadness is a choice. No shit. And sometimes you need that sadness, wether it's for a quick, angry meltdown in your room, or a slow burn for a month or two filled with silence and sipping chocolate milk on the couch. No one has the right to tell you to stop being sad, and you have every right to tell them to fuck off if they do. Don't take shit from anyone. Defend people who can't defend themselves and burn the bullies and oppressors to the ground. Voice your opinion and always have your own back, because sometimes you will be the odd one and you may not have someone to have your back. Make a new wardrobe. You deserve to finally be able to experience and experiment with yourself and how you project yourself through clothes. Where black, where neons, where pastels, be a jock, be a nerd, be emo, do what YOU want- not what society demands. Maybe where makeup? Maybe not. Choice is yours, but if you wanna where no makeup one day and come to school the next day lookin like a queen with a full set of makeup, do it. Cut your hair! Make it short, keep it long, but don't keep it or make it a certain length because someone tells you to. Cut it or keep it for yourself and no. one. else.  If people give you crap for it, gladly tell them to get their head out of their ass. Don't let any asshole body shame / bully you. And I'll be DAMNED if you let that little shit go without sticking up for yourself. Do your homework... but do not stress yourself out. You have to study and do your work, but don't consume yourself in it. Instead make a balance! Time management is      k e y  to high school and anything in general. (You got this). Be okay with failure. Embrace your mistakes and to hell with everyone who expects you to be perfect and looks down on you because you made mistakes. Remember, just because you failed or didn't do as good as you thought it made a mistake- big or small- you are not a horrible person. It just shows that you are human! Don't dwell on the mistakes of the past, you can't fix that, but you can change the future. IT IS NEVER TOO LATE !! Don't ever feel guilty or bad for needing to stop, take a breather, or just disconnect with people for a while. It's also okay to hold things in, but voicing your concerns to people you trust WILL help you, and it will be scary, but it helps I promise. Also, one mistake (or multiple) WILL NOT DEPICT YOUR FUTURE!!!
If you wanna be quiet, that's perfectly fine & acceptable & valid!!! Don't feel bad for not talking in a conversation. Sometimes the most valued person in social situations are the people who are able to be active  listeners than the people who are fueling the conversation.
On the other hand, if you wanna talk, talk your heart out!! If people don't want to listen to you than 1) they can go away and 2) they aren't worth your time, since, apparently, you aren't worth theirs atm.

This is sincerely written by 2017's major "fuck up". Hope this helps:))