A new day, a new secret
Interconnected like webs, these lies
They make me despise
The monster I’ve become
Like a giant arachnid, always afraid
That I will get trapped inside,
My own fabrications,
Cause my own demise
Because in the end I’m hurting no one more
Than myself.
Yet here I go, again and again
Spindling stories that never seem to end
They never give up, they never stop
Until they’ve consumed me, filled me up
They’re flowing over now and they’re breaking through
The walls of pretence that I’ve managed to construct
Are making a final attempt to keep the deceits bound like fraying chains
Holding back dragons that breathe pure destruction,
Like animals that will tear away at my reputation,
Like trolls that will knock out my perseverance
The perseverance it took me to become someone I wanted to be
To devise the perfect personality
Or so they thought
Because that’s what I wanted them to think
That I was this perfect human being.
Untouchably flawless, with nothing abysmal to see,
When really, it was just me
Projecting my desires rather than the things
That truly
Really
Undoubtedly
Made me me.
No facades.
No masks.
Oh how I wish
I could undo this mess
Unravel the threads holding this charade together,
How I desire to see
The intricacies of my mesh
Fall apart
Revealing the bare
Naked
Exposed
Identity that is honestly me
How I hunger to break free
Of this shell of dishonesty
Break free
From this beast of a body which ensnares me
Break free
Up, through the skin, moulting my deceptions like a snake shedding,
Leaving everything behind
Break free, just break free
From the lies.
