New Year's day.
5 years ago I lost my best friend...
and now I'm waiting for my turn.
Maybe things weren't supposed to go right.
maybe that's what makes us human.
Now, I just wait and wait for my turn.
Sometimes I will force it upon myself,
but other times I just beg for that day.
I love the things life has given me,
but I don't deserve it.
Life isn't about me,
so I don't even worry about myself.
Whether it's a few more than the day after of showering,
or not taking off my makeup,
and wearing the same outfit for nearly a week.
Because, honestly, at this point,
I've never not cared about myself as much as I don't now.
So, Happy New Year...
and hopefully I'll make it to the next.
