It's Okay, I Like Different [Destiel]

I Can Hear Your Heart Beat

~Dean's POV~

I wake up still next to Cas. Shit. We have school today! I can't miss two damn days of school. Especially the first two. That's when I realize that I had woken up to an alarm. That's a step up.

Cas grumbles and rolles over. He's so cute. I lightly say Cas' name while I look at the time on his phone. It's a good thing he wakes up early because we are quite a drive away from school.

"Dean. . ." Castiel mumbles.

I can't help but giggle because he isn't even awake yet and he's already said my name. I decide to be a little louder, because we really have to get going to school.

"Good morning, Castiel."

Cas wakes up with a start but looks relieved when he sees me. Man, his eyes are striking blue. I've never seen eyes that blue before.

"Wh-what time. . . h- Dean," he says.

I laugh a little louder this time. He's still waking up; his raspy voice is adorable.

"Cas, wake up. It's 5:45, we have enough time to get to school if we leave in a few minutes. You're lucky your alarm went off."

"Shit," he mumbles.

"It's okay, baby, we have enough time, okay?" I reassure him.

I make him blush when I say baby. That makes me smile. He looks away, trying the gather belongings that he doesn't have. I sneak up behind him and put my arms around his waist. I kiss him right behind the ear and then turn him around to I can, once again, kiss his soft and lightly chapped lips.

Just after kissing for a moment, we finally agree to get in the car and start driving back to school.

~At School~
~Cas' POV~

All through the day, I cannot stop thinking about Dean. The way he kissed me right behind my ear. The way he woke me up quietly. The way he called me "baby." It all just felt so right.

~No One's POV~

Days passed with the same thing happening: Dean would wink at Castiel when they passed each other in the hallways at school. Castiel would blush at that exact moment. They would purposely brush shoulders and apologize just to get an enjoyable touch throughout the everlasting days at school.

Surprisingly, Dean kept school and his time with Castiel balanced out; he was actually doing okay at this school. His grades were decent, which made him feel like a weight was lifted off his shoulders.

Castiel, on the other hand, was slowly falling behind in his classes because he was thinking about Green Eyes too much. Though he didn't care much right now, he didn't think he'd be throwing away his chances of college in a few years.

~Cas' POV~

"Dammit Cas!" Dean starts. He's not yet shouting, but I can hear it welling up in his throat. I can see how hard it is getting to not lash out at me.

I don't say a word.

"Cas, do you know how hard it is to get into a decent college? You might not care that your grades are going down slowly now, but in the next few years you could lose interest completely! You are so smart, and you're throwing it away for me. I need you to focus, Cas. Look at me."

I obey him and look up. His green eyes are distracting me. And even though he probably shouldn't've during the lecture about how I need to pay less attention to him, he cups my face in his palms and kisses me. He kisses me for a long time and then breaks it off so just our foreheads are touching.

"I'm sorry," he whispers to me. "It's your life, baby, but I do care about your life, and I want you to have a life after high school. I don't want you to stop right before college. I want you to keep going, Cas."

I just nod.

He takes me into a tight embrace so my head is buried in his shoulder. I breathe in heavily, taking in his scent, before breaking down in tears.

"Cas, baby, what's wrong?" he asked me. I should tell him, because he told me everything. He needs to know that my life isn't all that normal, either. But I need a second, for me. I have to break down just for one moment before I talk again.

"Dean. . ." I say, my voice raspy from the sobs.

"It's okay," he whispers in my ear.

"I have to tell you," I start. So I tell him everything:

My mother left when I was four. She didn't want us anymore. But my father was loyal, he stayed with us. He didn't leave. He always made sure someone was watching over us if he wasn't there. He single handedly raised 8 kids. Gabe, Anna, Rachel, Uriel, Raphael, Lucy, Zach, and me. Everybody in my family was so smart; I was pressured into doing everything right. When I screwed up, it was World War III. The only people that didn't pressure me were Gabe, Anna, and my father. Then, all of my siblings turned against me and moved out because I am gay except for Anna and Gabe. My father, Chuck, also stayed loyal to me, and I stayed loyal to him. Gabe, Dad, Anna, and I keep each other happy. We take care of each other. But I do miss my other siblings. I wonder every day why they were so against me.

I break into tears again and Dean holds me close. He kind of rocks me back and forth while we're sitting by our lake.

"Shh, shh. It's okay, baby. You can cry. I'm right here with you, okay? Shh."

Dean keeps whispering things like this in my ear for a long time.

After a while, I start to calm down and I grow very tired. We lay down on the grass and Dean starts to sing quietly in my ear "All My Love" by Led Zeppelin.

~Dean's POV~

Cas breaks into tears again and I don't know what to do. So I just bring his head to my chest and whisper soothing things to him for about an hour. He calms down a bit and I decide to help him get to sleep by quietly singing to him. I start with "All My Love" by Led Zeppelin.

Eventually, I fall asleep with him. When I wake up around 1 AM, I notice that he is awake and I say, "Hey, baby."

He doesn't look up, but he barely squeaks out, "I can hear your heart beat."

I smile and fall asleep again.