Secret Cure

[3]

Toni

"You have what?!" Janet cried in front of me. She collapsed and started balling her eyes out and I know where she's coming from. We've been together for so many years and been through a lot at that. I know this must be heart wrenching for her.

I pulled her into me and let her cry on my shoulder. This is some hard news to take and it sucks like hell, when the doctors told me, I cried. I didn't cry out of pain or hurt though. I'm ready to die. I can't even sugarcoat it. My life is a totally disaster. I get abused emotionally, mentally, and physically everyday. My mother hates me and my father... he's a bastard for leaving.

Cancer is ironically my lifesaver at this point. Hearing the doctor's tell me I have three months to live was music to my ears. It sucks I have to leave Janet behind but I honestly believe she can make it.

I tried to hush down Janet's crying but she was hysterically balling her eyes out. I kissed the side of her cheek and held her face in front of me. "Jan, I promise you, this is all going to be okay. I'm fine with it and I need you to be strong during this time. Can you do that for me?"  I asked her.

She was still balling but nodded at the same time. I hugged her again and let her finish crying. I didn't know she'd cry so hard.

Janet

I've just received the most heart breaking news ever: the love of my life is dying. I have just about three months to spend with her before she is gone. I'm broken inside and I'm not even hiding it.

Toni thinks I'm crying because I'm losing my best friend, she doesn't know I'm losing the love of my life, my soulmate. I know it seems crazy how in love I am with her, but nobody will ever understand, somedays I barely do. It's just a overwhelming feeling.

"I just love you so much, I don't want to lose you." I cried in her arms. She whispered she loved me back but I know she doesn't love me the way I do her.

Knowing she may die before I gain the balls to tell her how much she really means to me made me cry even harder. "It's going to be okay. I swear." She whispered.

I gained some strength to pick myself up off Toni and wiped my eyes. "You ruined your mascara." She laughed. I rolled my eyes playfully and wiped my eyes some more.

"I promise to make the next three months the best. You'll have all the memories you need to last you a lifetime." She promised.

As much as I know she wants to go, I cannot let her. She, over everybody I know, deserves life. There's something about her that makes her great and will eventually lead her to success. Not just average success of a stable job and income, fame and fortune kind. I can't let her slip away from the greatness she's meant to be.

"Well, after my doctor's visit of course. Will you come?" She asked. She had excitement written on her face. I know she hates life and how eager she must be for the three month limit on her life, so I'll just play along. "Of course, now?" She nodded and dragged me to the car.

It was nearly 5PM when we finally got to the hospital after a very quiet ride. Toni was jamming to some music as I sat in the passenger seat and just watched her. She seemed to finally enjoy life, or maybe enjoy the ending of her life. Either way life and her, right now, were on good accords.

"Miss Toni Braxton." A nurse called. We went into behind the nurse to the last room available. The nurse widened the door for us to enter and Toni sat on the bed. I took a sit in the chair beside the bed and we waited for the doctor to enter.

"Hello, Miss Braxton." The doctor said upon entering. He asked Toni a ton of questions as I just sat back and tried to really deal with the fact I could lose her.

"Well, we want to try chemotherapy, we can't force you to take it but we think it's worth a try, at least for some time." The doctor recommended. Toni looked as if she had the answer already, but didn't want to blurt out a blatant NO. Kind of selfishly, I slapped her thigh and gave her the look.

"Please. For Me." I mouthed to her. Toni rolled her eyes at me before turning back to the doctor. "Fine, I'll try it." She groaned.

The rest of the appointment went well and he gave Toni ways to deal with any feelings that may come up and how the chemo will work.

"Thank you, doc." Toni said before walking out. I stayed behind to talk to the doctor about something.

I didn't want Toni knowing. The doctor said what I wanted was hard but doable. Toni bursted back into the room and asked me why I was still here.

"I was asking him about that cold I had last week. Taking the opportunity of a doctor." I laughed. She laughed after me buying my lie. "Well doc, thank you, I will definitely call you with an update." I said before leaving out behind Toni.

"You totally jacked my doctor." Toni laughed on the way home. I lowly chuckled at her statement but I was truly terrified for what I'm getting myself into.
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