January 1, 2018

realizing

i think i've always been the same friend wise. to you you see all these crazy friendships that seem like they are a match made in heaven. you're going to go through a phase where you have friends you don't really fit with and you're just kinda with for the moment because this is what you have for right now. these are the people you hang out with and that's okay. it's not like oh yeah i'm just using these people. but the fact is, you click for right now but you might not click like next year. you might not be clicking in two years. you're all going to change and grow apart. and i think it's okay to grow apart from people it's never a personal thing it's not like oh fuck you we don't get along you don't like the same music i like anymore, fuck you. it's like yeah people aren't always going to click. when we hang out it's not going to be as fun, we both have different interest now and we are just not as close. i didn't always believe in the idea of a best friend. i don't like a idea of keeping stables in my life. but then you're going to end up meeting somebody who changes your idea of things. maybe that's another thing, you should probably be open and change your idea of things and change things out. definitely 2018 don't be afraid to try things. i'm not saying to go do cocaine or meth. but friendship wise, don't be afraid to branch out. i think this year i became a lot more secure in myself.