unlucky love (together with me)

dry death

Farm didn't know how long his laying on the bed with tears in his eyes. He can't stop it. He didn't has reason to stop. He broken. Everything was perfect before, and suddenly fall.. fall to the dark.

No. He can't to be like this anymore. He wiped his eyes. Sit in the corner of bed. Tried take a deep breath repeatedly. Hold his feelings. Today was his birthday and it should be his happiness but...

The memories came to his mind. His phone was ringing when he took a bath. And p' Bright was there in front of his dorm, with his mesmerized smile invited him to join him.

Begin with a beautiful morning, grab a breakfast then p' Bright took him to go shopping. They bought some couple stuff, one of them was t-shirt. Farm remembered clearly how p'Bright help him in fitting room. Hug him from back, and let Farm look it from the mirror.

"Do you know how grateful I am that you was born and came to my life, my prince charming, Farm" p' Bright whisper into Farm's ear and bite it gently.

"P'...P' Bright, ugh" Farm can felt p'Bright breathing in his ear. It was hot, so hot. P'Bright turn Farm body to face him. Give him kisses star from forehead to nose, right cheek then left side and chin. Stared at Farm with his beautiful eyes before kiss Farm's lips.

"Let's continue when we home" said p' Bright, Farm nodded nervously and p'Bright kiss Farm one more time. "Let's take a pic"

It was the first time p'Bright asked to take on photo, "huh? Pic? --why, p'?"

"So, One day, when I look at the picture, I know I was there in your special day. --can i?"

Farm stared p'Bright, smile happily, "yes, p'" Farm took his phone, took a selfie. And send to p'Bright line. After that they help each other to change the shirt, p'Bright give Farm a kiss mark in his collar bone when put on Farm's shirt and smile.

Farm remember every detail, what p' Bright did to him. How his arm hug Farm's body, his lip kiss Farm, p'Bright sweet talk, gentle attitude that always hipnotis him. Make him give everything he had. He can smelled p'Bright Perfume from his own clot. He loved it, and hate it now. Farm took off his clothes, toss it far away.

The tears come streaming down farm's face. How could this happened to him. It was like his love went to waste. Farm bite his hand until it bleed. Hard to breath, His chest felt like been squeeze hardly and it can explode anytime. Farm took his pillow, bury his face on it and screaming. He broken inside. His soul got torn apart.

Farm didn't want to felt it anymore. Farm took his jacket and went away. He want run away, run away from this shit life.

He run and run no direction until no stamina left and fall. But the tears still come down. Tired. The first time fall in love and first time broken heart. Everything make Farm tired. Can he stop this tears? Will it dry? How to stop this hurt? How to stop this time? How to stop breathe? How to stop this life?

It already midnight, so quiet. Farm can hear the sound of the wind. And have no desire to get up. Just lay down in the ground where he fall.

"...lo"

Tired... wet... cold... hurt...

"Hellooooo~ !!! --sorry but can you not sleep here coz will disturb our customers"

No answer.

"Excuse me! Can you hear me? Do you understand? --Are you foreigner?"

Still no answer.

"Geeeez, drunk people or foreigner who drunk, get my nerve !! --come on if you sleep under the tree you can hypoxia, coz tree need oksigen in night circle. Which mean you can die slowly there ! So get up, please !!"