One Year (Narry AU) - Completed

Chapter 4

 HARRY'S POV

I really didn't feel like getting up this morning, my first class would be English and that meant over an hour of Niall's presence. After that, music class with Niall and his precious boyfriend. I usually didn't care about other people too much, besides Louis and Zayn no one really mattered too much to me but for some reason, Niall was driving me crazy, and I didn't like it.

There was a part of me that regretted my bad attitude towards the new kid, maybe I should've been more polite and try a bit harder.

If he's not too bad today, I'll talk to him, at least to figure out the whole essay thing.

For some reason, Niall's presence also scared me. He wasn't exactly ugly, which I had admitted to myself yesterday and I knew I had checked him out a bit. Usually I wasn't acting like this towards my classmates but Niall, he was different, and it made me nervous.

The thing is, I had been struggling with mixed emotions towards guys for a while now, it had all started at my birthday party where I was dared to kiss a guy. I had felt something I had never felt with a girl. Not sparks or fireworks but lust, just pure lust. He had given me a blowjob and when I had woken up the next morning, I had been throwing up for the whole day. I had decided to forget everything and from there on, I had only been with girls.

The problem was, I had failed massively at forgetting that night. Ever since then, girls didn't excite me the slightest bit and I was ashamed to admit that I hadn't had sex with girls. Like ever. Yet everyone at school thought I was a man whore, only playing with girls and breaking their hearts. The rumour was, I would sleep with a girl and dump her the next day. Well, that wasn't me at all. Or it was, in a strange way. I'd let girls do me but I never went further than that, I just couldn't do it no matter how hard I had tried in the past.

I had hooked up with so many different girls while fancying being with a guy. Which I hadn't admitted to anyone, not even Louis. I thought liking boys was wrong and the only thing I could do was to force myself being with girls. Every time I had been admiring a guy, I would let a girl do me. This was the way I was dealing with all the mixed feelings I had been having and for now, it seemed to work just fine. At least no one knew about my obsession towards the wrong team and I wanted to keep it that way.

While I was showering I started to think about Niall, again. It was like I couldn't stop thinking about him no matter how hard I tried and it seriously annoyed me. Just wait for Friday and find a girl, you'll be as good as new, I tried to calm myself down. This was going to work, just like always. Friday was three days away and on Saturday I wouldn't even remember Niall's name. That thought made me smile widely.

"Good morning class. We won't be doing your essays today so I advice you to continue writing them outside the class, your due is next Monday as I told you yesterday."

I felt relieved after hearing what Mr. Perks was telling us. No Niall today, thank god. I can't handle the cute Irish lad today. Wait, he's not cute. No way.

Then the thought hit me, I needed to see Niall outside school in order to finish my essay. Sure I had known that but it wasn't until now I realised it. This meant I needed to spend more time with Niall, which meant more thinking about him. And that, I didn't want.

"Harry, wait up!" I heard someone shouting behind me when I was walking towards the music classroom. I recognised the voice immediately, it belonged to Niall. I slowed my footsteps down and waited for him, he was breathing heavier than normal when he reached my side.