To: A Man Who Doesn’t Know My Existence,
End of the year 2012 when I knew about you and your group.I didn’t mind liking your group at first but never thought I would be stanning you guys so much,especially you. We know you as Wu Yi Fan who has a stage name of Kris and we know you for having a cool and respectful image during MAMA Era.
Wolf Era, I noticed your clumsiness when the twelve of you visited Happy Camp, you claimed to be the main vocal and lead dancer.Much of more clumsiness when the 12 of you guested at the China Love Big Concert, they said you’re the most artistic in EXO. I laughed when I heard that,who would have thought they would tolerate your drawing of who-knows-what-age-drew-it-unless-they-knew-about-you.
Growl Era came,I found myself being crazy about you whenever I see a picture or video of you. I’m always sharing it to my friends even though they are not interested.When you guys had the Midnight Summer Growl with Shindong of SJ sunbaenim,you showed us a drawing in a sketchpad.You said it was you and your members. I really laughed hardly when I saw your work,I mean..maybe even a kindergarten’s drawing could be better than yours.haha!So you said it was EXO but you couldn’t remember who among them is in your drawing! During your growl era, I started to buy official merches of you online such as postcards,polaroids and photocards. I don’t know how will I show my support to you so I decided to spend money in the items that SM Ent is releasing.Every time I received those merches,I feel so blessed and thankful. I even promised myself that you’d sign all of them someday.
MID Era, I HAAAAD AN EARGASM AT YOUR RAP IN THE STAR BBY!EVERYTIME I’LL HEAR YOUR VOICE MAKES ME SQUEEL TO DEATH OR EVEN HIT MY FRIENDS HARDLY!OH YES,THEY KNEW ABOUT YOU ALREADY SINCE GROWL ERA RULED THE TWITTER TRENDS EVERYTIME EXO WINS! The MID MusicVid made me cry,even though I have not searched for the English Translation of the lyrics I feel so sad and it made me cry.What made me cry more was when I can’t find a seller of your snowgloooooooooobe! Like OMG!It took me after 2 months when I found one,I thought it was rare but no, sellers just really want trades not buyers.So yeah,really thankful that I found a seller of your snowglobe! <3
Overdose Era, I am really thankful and so proud of you when you had your comeback showcase last April.The start of this Era was bad,of course I am referring to the Sewol Ship.But then,everything went to normal again you guys won in music shows again.I thought everything would be alright but then,last May 15 I keep on receiving SMS saying you’ll leave the group.I did not believe at first so when I logged in,IT WAS A FREAKING PIECE OF EVERY SHIT for me! I keep on asking Why?Why Kris?Why? infront of my laptop while crying.I KNOW IT WOULD NOT MAKE ANY SENSE if I keep on muttering those words but baby?It really hurts.It fucking hurts inside my chest. Days passed by rumors still keep on spreading even bad things about your members exploded.We were thankful because other fandoms esp. CASSIES and ELFS trying to comfort us.They told us we need to win this fight to justify what happened to Hangeng and DB5K.For those past few days I didn’t ate and sleep well,I had a mental breakdown..I was so confused and I don’t know whom and what to believe anymore.
140525, last day of LostPlanetinSeoul..they keep on saying 11 people forever.Why bby..I don’t want to accept it right now,but someday..I know I can accept it..I know I can handle the truth. The fans who saw you already are lucky.They had the chance to meet and see you perform.They had the chance to glance at your moves during performances. I promised myself when you come back here to have a concert,I’ll watch. Now that the LostPlanet in MANILA is confirmed,whom will I support the most if you won’t be there? I know this is not the end baby. I just have to wait for you to come back right?
I’ll wait for you no matter what happens,I’ll wait for you in the same eyes and at the same level.I’ll surely meet you infront of the stage performing your future ERA and here am I in the audience area screaming for your name but of course you won’t hear me ‘cos thousands of fans are screaming for you too.
THANKYOU for everything Wu Yi Fan,for being a good and hard working Duizhang, for being EXO’s Appa and for being a cold-city-guy-who-has-no-style-in-Earth-except-for-chicken.Hoping I could bump into you someday and I’ll grab the chance to ask you what happened and I’ll tell you how much I stand,admire and love you from afar. For now,I’ll continue to stan the 11 members and protect them from bashers and such while waiting for you to come back.
Right now,you need to rest well and come back to EXO soon. I won’t leave your side like how other fans left you and called you hurtful things such as betrayer,selfish etc. I’ll protect you even from afar,if I’ll see someone posted a bad thing about you?I’ll protect you! I’ll fight for you till the end. I know you would have no chance to read this letter and you would not even know that a letter like this exists on Earth.But can’t I just hope for the best?That someday..you’ll have the chance to read this piece of crap.
I love you my UB. No matter what happens,I’ll wait for you and you’ll be my inspiration in every step that I’ll make in my life.
From,
A Girl You Don’t Even Know She Exists
