Supernatural One Shots

Unspoken and Unseen

First draft of Sam Winchester's application essay:

I never really fit in with my family. My mom died when I was a baby and my brother Dean was four years old. He mentions her from time to time, talks about how she made him peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and cut the crusts off. How she made him pie. How she used to sing him "Hey Jude" by The Beatles to help him fall asleep. Sometimes when we're driving in the car and he thinks I'm asleep, he turns it on. Once I looked at him and he was crying. My dad doesn't talk about her at all. He was in the Vietnam War but what happened over there was nothing compared to what Mom's death did to him. Dean's told me how Dad used to be so affectionate when Dean was a kid, but now he's cold and unforgiving. I think I've heard Dad say the words "I love you" all of three times in my whole life. He's more likely to say "I'm proud of you" but he never says it to me, only Dean. He doesn't want me to go to college, but I want to make a difference in the world, help people.

• • •

It wasn't just Sam who was hurt by Jessica's death. When Dean ran into the room to drag Sam out, it wasn't just Jessica he saw burning on the ceiling – it was his mom too. When he closes his eyes at night, all he can see is bright orange flames.

• • •

1x12 Faith

"I know I haven't prayed since I was a kid and I got no right to ask you for anything, but Layla's a good person. For one thing, she forgave me for taking her once chance of beating cancer. She doesn't deserve to die. I know she could do good things if you just let her live."

Chuck doesn't answer prayers often, just leaves it up to fate, but this time is different. Dean has never prayed in his entire life. Layla must be a great girl for Dean to ask for help. Chuck makes an exception this time.

• • •

1x19 Provenance

Sam still thinks about Sarah. What happened to her? How did figuring out that ghosts are real change her life? Is she still out there with her dad, selling art? Has she found someone? Gotten married? Had babies? Years later, he finds out the answer to those questions. She did get married and she did have a kid. She was happy. And he killed her, and Sam will never forgive himself for that.

• • •

2x01 In my Time of Dying

Dean had three main nightmares after the accident. First, he had nightmares where he felt like he couldn't breathe. He was gasping for air. In the dream, he opened his eyes to see Sam blankly staring at him. There was a tube in his throat, choking him and making him gag. Each time, he woke up gasping. The second was Dad. He always saw him collapsing in slow motion. He would kneel above him and cry over his corpse for what felt like hours. Once, Sam had heard him screaming and ran into the room to wake him up. Dean's face was wet with tears. The third was Sam. His eyes would flash yellow and he would torture him, physically and emotionally. Those were the worst.

• • •

2x04 Children Shouldn't Play with Death Things

The guilt is so intense and settles in so fast. What's dead should stay dead. Dean should've died but instead, his dad is dead and stuck in Hell, and there's nothing he can do about it. What's dead should stay dead.

• • •

2x10 Hunted

I'm better off dead, Sam thinks. Every time he gets angry or is violent even if it's to kill a monster, he wonders what he's becoming. How long until he completely changes and turns on Dean? He has to be stopped before that happens.