My True Love

Chapter 4: Alone

The last few days have been a blur. The person I love is dating my enemy. I lost my best friend. And some things I haven't mentioned is that my older brother Alexander is in college, and the college he goes to doesn't allow phones so my family can't call him, and my parents are always arguing nonstop. All because of those things I have been crying myself to sleep. Right now, I feel like there's no hope, I feel like things will not get better, and most of all, I feel alone. I do not know what to do. And I can't believe I'm saying this, but, I don't feel like being alive. This is too much for a 17 year old like me to handle.

I don't like the position I'm in right now. I'm too heartbroken. If Alexander was here, he would've held me tight in his arms and told me that everything would be alright. If my parents weren't arguing, they would've reasoned with me. If Cassy was still my friend, she would've made me feel better just to know she was there for me. If Erick was my boyfriend, we would've just ran away from the trouble, at least for a second.

But sadly that's not the way it is. It's the complete opposite. I feel like everybody is trying to get away from me in their own way. I cry every night, and I wouldn't even care if I had gotten hurt. At this point, nothing hurts more than the pain I'm in right now. That's when I got the idea of running away. Running away alone. I don't care about no one because no one cares about me. If everybody cared about me then they wouldn't put me through this pain all at once. I packed my bags, my toothbrush, toothpaste, my phone, charger, some shoes, and some books. I didn't know where I was going, but I definitely did not want to be here. Before I left I made a note saying:

Dear Mom and Dad,
I ran away. I've thought about it a lot, and I don't want to be here where there's so much trouble.
You guys, Alexander, Cassy, and Erick have brought me a lot of stress, pain, and the thought of
not wanting to be alive. Don't worry. I understand that none of you guys need me. All you have
to do is move on without me. And if you guys miss me, (which I'm pretty sure you won't), you'll
still have Alexander. He's the smartest kid you will ever know. He's also way more worth keeping
than I am. I'll miss you all no matter what. Just remember that I'm always thinking about you,
       and
I will always love you. Goodbye.

Love,
Sarah

As I walked away slowly, I thought about all of the people I would leave behind. Of course I'd miss them all, but I'm also not good enough for them. My heart was pounding like crazy. Pretty soon I was crying again. You can't always get what you want. But I knew it was the right thing to do. And, I honestly didn't care if I could never be found.