Both Timothy and I were together for around half a year including the end of year holidays. When school reopened, he requested me to meet him after school as he needed to say something. To my surprise, he said that this year was a critical year for us cause we would be having our Os and that he also don't feel attracted to me anymore and preferred to stay as friends instead. I was flabbergasted. I understand about the exams part however what he said about being friends broke my heart.
Trying my best not to reveal my weak side to him, i smiled and said that i was okay with the breakup (he asked about my feelings and opinions on it) and that i hoped that we could continue after Os. Chances of him getting him back is a 50-50 chance. I felt that during that long period of time, he would be thinking about this matter and understand his feelings for me better with Emma help.
To be honest, i was dead inside, broken within. I had no faith in living, it felt like death. Thinking that my feelings for him wasn't that strong to the extend that i would have a mental breakdown, yet it happened. Painful experiences for me in four years made me lose hope. You know what? I stayed strong to the very end that i felt numb afterwards. I was used to it, the pain. I was too good at goodbyes.
Will Timothy comes back to me or not? I don't know goodbye my love.
