A random letter, lesson ,and or conversation.

1/4/18

I find it odd how you may know someone's deepest darkest secrets then lost interest in one another but still choose not to tell those secrets out of love.. Right? I mean it's weird to me out of own experience being hurt by someone doesn't mean you have to hurt them back. In my opinion it's more human and responsible to keep their secret their secret no matter what they did. Because first you are being the bigger person and people will know to trust you even in hard time also you can make the relationship stronger.

When I say relationship I mean any as in: mother-daughter, family-family,friend-friend , boyfriend-girlfriend. Any relationship because they all matter in one way or another. Just needed that to be clarified some people may think it's for one but really it's for all.

But anyways I find it strange how so much trust can be put into someone and then just leave. I mean that's life like dust flowing in the wind. I would think that the person who told me what I think was personal would worry if I told others what they told me. Do they trust me that much or do they know even if they betrayed my trust I couldn't live with the guilt of betraying theirs? I know this probably isn't important but I wonder what old friends feel even if they say they're happy on social media. Are they really because I know when they faked a smile for me around somebody I cared for was pretty convincing for that acquaintance but not to me.

I suppose this will always just be thoughts kept to my self about old friends and family that lost contact or became afraid of what could of been. These thoughts kill me at my worst moments because we made good memories. Sometimes I like to think of the good times during the bad but depending sometimes it only makes it worse.

I don't know what I'm saying because it's strange to think the person you could talk almost about anything doesn't matter as much as the current person. That's growing up some might say but i find it sad to lose contact of a good relationship because you don't have a class with them or because their life is different from yours because no two lives are similar tho so why couldn't it just work? Was it a test from the man up above to see how far we would go to keep touch? Or a sign that it was meant to be lost?

Dear reader,
Do not let thoughts like these eat at you as they do me. I would also think that if someone was to leave your life it was to better you and make you stronger. That is the only logical reason or they would have never been brought into your life and leave.
-Mali