Craving Insanity

The Taste Of Pain

Chapter One: The Taste Of Pain

MARIAH'S P.O.V

My skin craved for the pleasure that wasn't given to me. The thought of that skank touching him was unbearable. These whispers in my head that was telling me to demolish her body, was drowning my body in pure negativity. I wasn't meant to be like this.. I wasn't meant to be trapped.

These pass few days were Reckless. Most of the time, I could feel his eyes on me. Every smile he cracked, made me want to shatter. The way his arms were snaked around her arms were like knives sinking there way into my soul. I couldn't give him the pleasure of seeing me trample over my own pity. I wasn't broken or shattered like most would think I would be.. Im just caged in infidelity.

You couldn't count how many days I've spent coaching and preparing my self for reality. You couldn't even count how many times I said that I could make it. School couldnt prepare me for this much pain that I've already endured. I've worked so hard to even Crack a "hello" to someone since summer break. My mom tried so hard to "help" me with my "problem" for about a month now. I want to speak, but my dignity won't let me..

The world around me doesn't slow down for anyone, I learned that the hard way. I was a spinning image of a lie, Covered in dirt and secrets. Anyone who strikes a look at me, would be disgusted and pitiful. I should be used to it by now, but ones scars never go away. One will never know the story, unless one enters it..

Everyone's demons always surface at the dark of days. Most even in the light. You can always try to disguise them, but they can not be caged for long. My demons were like everyone else's but more vivid. If you truly look at them, they will steal every single piece of innocence you may have. They started out with me as bait. I couldn't never be cool or popular, loved or liked. I was dead inside, so I guess it really didn't mattered.

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A/N

Hi, My name Is Skyy. I wrote book, just to test out my skills.. the next chapters will not be like this and would have more dialog and less deep feelings as this one has.. I didn't really mean for this to be so gloomy.. it would have a better outcome the next chapters and will be more of a story..

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