Smile at me

trueloves hope/ chapter 1

I wake up, it's mid august and school was about 2 weeks away from starting. i was making sure i made every single last summer day count. I knew my summer wasn't super fun filled but there were those days i still look back on and wish i could simply go back and replay. I had gotten home from an awesome vacation from California only to be broken up with over distance and things would be to hard and complicated. 7 months had just past for that relationship. I knew i couldn't just sit and be sad about things. there were many tears and many slow sad songs played that night. I began to grow silent and i pick up a makeup wipe and wipe the black mascara that ran down my freckled cheeks. My eyes were sore, puffy and red from shedding so many tears. I did not want that night to be the end of who i am. I didn't want that relationship to slowly kill me with discomfort and dread. I just wanted to be a girl, and to be free and happy along with having my feelings open. But i still stood a closed off library book with a lock, that i thought the ex had in his hands. But.. little did i know before he left, he dropped it and someone ran in to find the book the key belonged to. I was the book and you had the key.

I walked back into my old jr high school. This was my last year before i began high school. Although i was a freshman, my district did it differently. I walked over to the group of my SBO and cheerleader friends and began to hug those that it had been a few weeks since last seeing them. My best friend and i walked into the school with our heads raised high since we were the top dogs now, we ran that school from top to bottom. We could have let out a single breath and scared a 7th grader walking by. I grabbed my schedule for the upcoming school year. And compared it to friends around me. I ended up getting a few classes together with some close friends and some not so close but soon to be good friends. I was prepared to walk back to my best friends moms car and head back to her house and crawling back in bed to sleep for an hour more. We ended up getting approached by a girl, i knew her as good and evil. She invited us back to her place where we began to play her piano and start to make our last plans of the summer.

we had been there for a good while now, all begin to get bored and hungry. We start throwing out different ideas on what to do, then an idea is shouted out. Swimming, a great idea for a warm summer day. But where? We don't have nearly enough to pay for everyone in the room. So we ask around for friends that had a key to a neighborhood pool. We finally got a response from a friend of my ex, we had not talked too much but we all knew him well enough to ask him for the key. He then replies with of course come get the key and i'll let you right in. we all get in the back of good and evils car. Her father gets in the car and he drives us back to all our homes to drop off our schedules and pick up our swimsuits.

We finally arrive at the pool, we end up all changing and getting in the pool. It was me, my best friend, good and evil, my best friends sister, and this girl that i'll call cougar. We all began to swim and have a good time, we all end up getting bored and want more friends to come out. So we asked the guy that gave us the key to come along and swim with us. Not knowing that he is with my ex and a few more friends. You were one of them. You walk down the street in you're american flag swim trunks a regular tee-shirt and a towel around your neck, along with the younger brother of the boy that let us in the pool. You walk into the pool and i notice you, i thought you were someone else at first glance. But this is the first time we met.

You took off your shirt and i give you a second glance. And notice that you had your black and blue ray bands on. I didn't notice you too much nor did i think of you as anything. I continue my game of pool volleyball with good and evil. And we eventually hit it out of the pool, you went and grabbed it and hit it in my direction. The first thing i notice about you is your smile. That big grin you get on your face when you're happy or make a funny joke. I miss that smile. Then the boy who let us in the pool invites more friends including my ex. The whole time it was crazy between me and my ex. Although we didn't talk i felt him glance over at me on more than one occasion. But i felt you glanced over more. We end up talking more and having a good time. I can still remember you swimming in the pool calling my name to get out of the pool, while you throw the ball at me and i run, jump, and catch the ball. I never did. But we stayed smiling and happy. As afternoon begins to turn dark, the clouds come to together and it begins to trickle with small drops of cold rain. You walk out of the pool area and i tell you goodbye. This is not the last time i will see you.