Hurt

Pain

// Every time you hurt me I would apologize because I would feel bad for thinking I hurt your feelings ~ unknown

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Darkness was beautiful compared to what I see in the light . The dark had sparked to life and light had fallen to death . Now everyone's broken but I was broken before this . My monsters are darker than the ones that stumble and eat upon the living mine are painful and kill slowly. And the chances of mine going away are slim . Everyone I know are someone else changed over time , but I'm still right here . The worlds over , but I was over along time ago .

" Doll I know your in there , don't think I'm not waiting " that's when I felt his lips rub against mine . I tried to move to slap him but my body felt flimsy like I'm not in it . The pain was almost gone , part of me wanted it to come back to just overcome me and kill me .
I slowly felt my eyes open I was in a bed . In an area that looked like a medical room . I try to get up and stumble. I fell and felt my knees pop .
" Fuck " I groan as I push myself up . That's when I hear hands clapping . I look up to see Negan look amused . Of corse he's amused we as humans love seeing each other in pain . " Where is he , where's Daryl " I say stumbling. Negan propped his self up on the door facing . He chuckles " He's down in the cells , see your brother went a little off his rockers when you passed out don't worry he's calming down hopefully as we speak " . Negan what a name it didn't sound popular but it was not a bad name .

" I need to see him " I fell to the ground and groaned at the pain . I crawled toward Negan I wasn't one for help but I needed it . " N - Negan please " I begged I wasn't one for begging but I couldn't move .
He smiled " Yes doll what is it ? " he chuckled . " I need you to help me up " he smiled as I felt a strong arm pull my hand in an upward motion . I smiled for what seemed like the first time in for ever . " Come on I have dinner ready in my room waiting for you " . Dinner with the devil was something before this world happened I wouldn't expect . He interwinds are hands I frown at him touching the skin of a broken women . We reached the end of the hall and enter a room of leather and velvet . He directs me to a white little door " Go wash up , you look shitty " he says as he walks out . I enter the bathroom to see a bunch of shampoo and conditioners for both men and women . I run my hand in the showers warm water . Each drop reminded me of each broken soul . I undress and ease in . I examine my scars each one telling a story. I broke down.

I remember the records dad use to play when he was drunk . One song came to my memory. He listen to it and weeped . I slowly began singing it .
" I hurt myself today . To see if I still feel . I focused on the pain the only thing that's real . The needle tairs a hole the old familiar sting . Try to kill it all away . But I rember everything. What have I become my sweetest friend . Everyone I know goes away in the end . And you can have it all my empire of dirt , I will let you down , I will make you hurt . I wear this crown of throns on my liars chair . Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair . Beneath the stains of time . You are someone else , I am still right here , what have I become my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end . And you can have it all my empire of dirt . I will let you down , I will make you hurt . If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself . I would find uh way . "

Tears streamed down my face . The song was write everyone I know goes away in the end . It's only a matter of time before Daryl , Me , maybe even Negan die . " Doll as much as I like the choir coming from my bathroom, I'm fucking starving so hurry your ass up " . I laugh Negan rushing me was new but I'm sure it won't be the last time . I get out and dry off and slip into a black robe . " Negan
Sorry to bother you , um do you have me any thing to wear " . He chuckles " Yeah here " it was a long black dress . I grabbed it from his hands and walked in the bathroom to put it on . Black was my soul a icy dark crystal black. I walk out and sat in the chair across from him .

" I ain't gonna lie doll you can fucking sing , I mean what were you before this a music teacher or something " he asked questioning me . I gave him a genuine smile " I was studying it but my mother passed and cut it short. I saw hurt in his eyes I didn't want someone feeling pity for me .
" I'm sorry " he says as he sinks his fork into a piece of broccoli. Negan knows I can't be broken He's catching on to the fact I'm broken and my prices can never be found.

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I know sucked but it gets way better next chapter I already have done and tbh I adore next chapter but thanks for reading

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