And I thought it was Impossible

Chapter 2

A/N: As promised , the second chappie  <3 ENJOY ^^ ( sorry for the delay !)

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What am I doing ? My heart is pounding so fast I feel like it's about to explode. I slumped against the door . Why did he have this effect on me . I closed my eyes . Another flash back playing :

"JANJAN ! " Tyler waved to me ," COME JOIN US FOR A GAME ."

 I looked at him , me? Joining his bunch of friends ? I'm sorry , that just doesn't click.

" What are you doing Tyler? Inviting that freak ? Ewww, I'm gonna get contaminated . See ya' tomorrow dude. " One of his friends whispered. They all walked away .

I lowered my head. Trying to stop the tears from falling . It was painful , hearing people say that . Like you're not wanted .

Then suddenly , I felt Tyler's hands on my head . 

"JanJan , it's okay , please don't cry ." He said softly and wiped away my tears.

That was the day I fell in love with him.

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"Why does things have to turn out like this ?" I buried my head in my hands . 

I switched on my computer and scrolled through my twitter. I didn't know what willed me to , but I clicked on Tyler's profile.

His latest post was yesterday . I read it . 

No.. Now I really don't have a chance. Not a single speck of it .

It said :

"I'm in a relationship with Caroline ! I love her to bits !" 

Why .. why didn't he tell me? Maybe he was going to later on. I'll just pretend I didn't know . But how can I face him now when I know I'll give him a disappointed look.

I guess I'm losing him this time.

-KnockKnock-

I quickly exited his profile. 

"Come in ." My voice shook a little.

"Are you feeling better now ?" Tyler asked.

"Yeah , yeah I'm fine ." I replied , avoiding his gaze.

"Jan.. I have something to tell you ."

Here it is . The moment.

"Yes?"

"I'm dating Caroline ."

I paused for a moment . I didn't know it would hurt that bad coming from his own mouth.

"Huh , good for you Tyler , I wish you happiness ." I smiled forcefully .

Tears were slowly making its  way to my eyes. 

"Tyler , can you please go ? I'm having a bad headache and I would love to sleep now."

"Jan, Jan please , let me talk to you for a moment ."

I pushed him towards the door . 

"Probably next time then Tyler ." 

And I closed the door silently and started sobbing .

Who knew that losing your first love to someone could be that painful ? If only I didn't feel that way , I could have avoided all these pain . 

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Tyler: 

She closed the door on me . I didn't want to hurt her . I could see that she was about to cry . It was this look that she made before she cried everytime.

A look that would make people feel the sorrow. I knew she was in pain . Heck , I knew she love me . I'm just afraid that it would affect our friendship.

"Bullshit Tyler , you know damn well you're just afraid of what people will think of you ." One side of me said .

Well yeah , but , I don't want to ruin our friendship too . And I've noticed that she has been avoiding me for these few weeks. Almost like she feel ashamed.

What have I gotten into ? I feel like I'm really falling for her . But Caroline , she's a really nice lady . I met her somewhere at a bar. She was those happy-go-lucky kind of girl.

I walked down and decided to make my way home .

"Mrs White ! I'm going home ! Thanks for dinner ." I said to Jan's mother.

She smiled at me and told me to come again soon.

Since I stayed near her , it didn't take me long to reach home . About , 5 minutes?

"Mum, I'm home ." I sighed .

"Hey dearie. How's your time at Janelle's?" My mum's head popped out of the kitchen.

"Fine ." 

She sat beside me and pat my head.

"Well , darling . Some things , can't be avoided. You just have to follow your heart. When you miss the chance , you'll really miss it . It won't ever come again . So seize the opportunity."

"What do you mean ?" I looked at her , bewildered .

"You know my dear. Deep down , you know . Think about it ." And she went to her room.

As I slept that night , I kept thinking of the words my mum told me . Could she be referring to Janelle? But how did she know?

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A/N:

'BA-DUM BA-DUM . WHO FEELS THE WAY JANELLE FEELS SOMETIMES ? It's sad right? Looking at your crush crushing on another person .

Well teehee , I'm off to watch my anime while I think of what to write for the next chappie . Sorry for the short chapter !  I'll post again , hopefully tomorrow ! :) TILL THEN,

CIAOOO~