"Victoria!" I heard RM called me,I here in my new room arranging my cloths,
this room I really love it, it has my favorite color which is pitch,
tinigil ko ang ginagawa ko at bumaba at pagbaba ko I saw suga,jungkook and jhope in the salas,
kasi pag baba mo galing hagdanan na sala ka na agad,
so yun nga when I cleared my throat they stop chatting and all are eyes are on me,
"Oh Victoria Namjoon hyung has been looking for you" jungkook said pointing the kitchen,
I just nod my head and I turn my back to them heading to the kitchen area,
before I could turn my back I heard suga says something so I just shrug.
Pagdating ko sa kitchen nila I saw Jin is cooking something and it smells good,
kaya lumapit ako rito and smell it"mmm...it smell's good"I said still smelling it and I hear RM and V slightly chuckle,
"Yeah it is, but it's really good if you eat it" Jin said, tumatango tango ako patunay sa pagsang ayon,
Jin is really a great cooker now I know,
"Victoria?" I heard V call me so I turn my head to him, I saw him smile so I smile back,
"Yeah? Do you need me to do anything?" I asked him still looking ta him,
"I just want to asks something cause you know ever since you came here you haven't talk to suga hyung, you always snob him"
umupo ako sa bakanteng upuan which is katabi nya and I smile,
Ramdam ko na tinitigan lang kami ng dalawa at hinhintay ang sagot ko, halatang curious din,
"Can I tell you something?" I asked him seriously, he just nod,
"You know I've been your number one fan," I started"and every time you have concert I and my uncle always there even if its is in Korea or in Europe and I haven't miss any of your concerts,"I look at him at ramdam ko parin and tingin ng dalawa sa Amin,
"Suga is my bias, cause his my bias I stalk him every time have free time but there's a rumor that suga is not a straight boy so I turn off, you know I hate people like that because people like them will just going to leave me alone, I will just going left hanging" ngumiti ako ng pilit ng maalala ko ang panahong iyon, na pinili nya sya over me,
I smile fake, at naramdam ko na tumulo na pala ang mga luha ko,
"So I stop being an army I just focus on my studies and forget about you, you know there's nothing wrong about you all even suga there's nothing wrong,really, but every time I saw him all my pasts will just going to pop out, I never tell my uncle that I already stop being a fan so he taught that living with you will be fine with me but its not, I will just going to remember the first who left me because e-every time I saw bi or gays it will just going to remind me my past"
I said between my sobs, I look down so they will not going to see me cry, naramdaman ko nalang na may tumapik tapik sa balikat ko and when I look up I saw V starring at me at Hindi parin itinigil ang pagtapik sa balikat,he is comforting me my tapping my shoulder kaya mas lalo akong napaiyak,
Nabalot ng katahimikan ang kusin at iyak ko lang ang naririnig,
They remain silent,
"D-dinner is ready!"napalingun kaming tatlo Kay Jin ng bigla syang sumigaw, halatang sinira nya ang katahimikan,
bigla nalang pumasok ang ibang ka members sa kusina at pumunta sa kanya kanyang pwesito, agad ko naman pinhiran ang mga mata ko at tumayo,
Bigla nalang tumakimik ang kusina at napunta saakin ang atensyon nilang lahat,
" where are you going? "Biglang tanong ni V, tumingin ako sa kanya at ngumiti," I will just going to get spoon and fork"I shrug and continue"you know I don't know how to use chopsticks "I said still smiling,
Tumalikod na ako at kumuha ng kutsara at tinidor, pagkatapos kung kuhanin ang dalawa bumalik na ako sa tabi ni V,
Bali ganito ang arrangement namin
V,ako,jungkook,then sa harapan namin jimin,suga,jhope at sa magkabilang gilid ng table at si jin at si RM,
Nagsimula ba silang mag usap usap pero di ko naman maintindiha kaya tumahimik nalang ako, nag focus nalang ako sa kinain ko,
Seriously, ang sarap ng pagkain,ngayon lang ako nakatikhim ng Korean food sa tanang buhay ko,
Sa gitna ng pagkain namin bigla nalang akong kinalabit ni jungkook, I look at him confuse,
" what?"tanong ko" here try this one"napunta kay jungkook ang atensyon ng lahat at sinusuri kung ano ang gagawin nito,
bigla nyang nilagyan ang plato ko ng cabbage, I hate cabbage very much kasi para syang pagkain ng kambing and I really hate kambing kasi they're silo ugly and I don't like their voice,
Umiling ako,"I don't eat cabbage"I said pouting, bigla nalang syang natawa sa inakto ko, he then pinched my cheeks, Napa aww naman ako
"Awww sorry did I hurt you that much?"mas napalabi pa ako, narinig i naman silang lahat na mahinang natawa,
" yes you did"I said still pouting , I heard them laughing na kaya mas lalo ako na panguso,
"Ok ok ebough" pagpigil ni sug a kaya napatingin kami sa kanya, sineyasan nya kaming kumain na kaya sinuud nalang namin.
"Hi!" bigla nalang akong napatingin sa pinto ng kwarto ko ng nakita kung nakadungaw si jimin doon,
tinanggal ko ang headset sa taenga ko at tumayo sa kama, ngumiti ako at ngumiti naman sya ng pabalik
"how was your dinner?" he asked roaming his eyes around my room, pina pasok ko sya loob at inayang umupo,
"Its alright, " I said, he then look at me,seriously "I heard it" he said,
bigla akong napatuwid at gulat na nakatingin sakanya,
"O-oh s-so y-you he-heard?" di naman ako tanga para hindi maintindihan ang sinasabi nya I know na yung sinabi ko ko kina V ang ibig sabihin nya,
"but don't worry I won't going to tell him" he smile at me so I smile back, then he roam again his eyes to my room,
"do you like your room?" he said still looking at my room,"yup, I really like it"I said smiling and roaming my eyes on my room,
Nag usap usap kami ng kung ano-ano, I like him he knows how to cheer someone,
bigla nalang syang napatayo,"I guess I need to go, I just want to check on you, so I guess your fine"said he, ngumiti lang ako sakanya, nang pinihit na nya ang siradura pinigilan ko sya,
"Can I call you kuya?" tanong ko habang nakatingin sa baba,
"Kuya?" Takang tanong nya na halatang hindi alam,inangat ko ang tingin ko sakanya at tumango,.
"Yeah kuya, kuya means older brother" bigla nalang syang ngumiti ng malapad at nag tumbs up,
Niyakap ko sya nang mahigpit kaya nabitawan nya ang pinto"yehey, I already have a kuya na!"parang batang sabi ko,
Napatawa nalang sa nya mahina at ginulo ang buhok ko, napasimangot nalang ako, kakatapos ko lang magsukalay kanina eh!
"Hahahah sure why not?" Ngumiti sya saakin tinignan ko lang sya"go to sleep its getting late"tumango nalang ako,pagkaraan ay isinara ang pinto,
Pinatay ko muna ang ilaw pagkatapos at bumalik sa kama,ini on ko muna ang lampshahe at na tulog.
